OK, I gave it a year. Full-time. Bedside hospital, telemetry. I still feel nearly how I did during orientation. I dread work, super anxious the night before, thinking about work when I am off, have to hold back the vomit/tachycardia when I ride the elevator to my floor. BP is up.....I've given it my heart and soul but my "cons" list is much longer than my "pros" inevitably. The part that makes the beside unbearable for me I think I have narrowed down to the unpredictability and the short-staffing and inability to sit for even a few minutes. Doesn't help that my time management skills seem to be lacking and I think the deficit is personality-related and not so much something that will "come with time". I hope, pray, that I get called off or put on delay. EVERY shift. LOL. Just doesn't seem right, this far in.
I have another PT job in ambulatory surgery right now that will pay the bills with not much leftover... I was going to drop to POOL at the hospital additionally but honestly if this feeling is never going to leave me and the hospital environment is not changing anytime soon do you think it is more appropriate for me to find a better fit somewhere else? I don't want to ruin my career but I sure as heck don't want to be miserable and exhausted anymore.
Don't you think I should feel different by now if the bedside was right for me?
