Cruel Summer - page 6

To say that the summer of 2013 will go down in history as my worst ever would be the understatement of the century. I lost my high-paying, executive-level job in May to a combination of a... Read More

  1. by   Flatlander
    Sometimes I believe "things happen for a reason," and other times it's like a "roll of the dice," that this should happen to one person and not the other. It seems so unfair at times. So mysterious. But there are a few things that seem constant. One is the kindness and compassion our misfortune draws from those around us. It is humbling to experience and inspiring to witness. Another thing I know is that even in the depths of grief and despair, one can find reason to share in a laugh, though it be preceded or followed by tears. Sometimes the clouds will lift for a moment and give one of those "mountain-top" experiences, when everything seems bathed in a glow, as when the sun breaks through after a heavy downpour.... you feel you're in touch with the ultimate in beauty and love. Your heart almost breaks, then soars with amazement, gratitude, and humility that this moment has been granted to you. These are the moments to savor as you move through the dark days. I hope all your days will brighten for you soon, Viva. Thank you for sharing your trials so eloquently, so that all of us might learn and grow. Peace to you.
  2. by   Marisette
    I can feel the sadness in your post, but I also feel the courage. Your nursing career will have to take a back seat because you have more urgent matters to attend to. I don't know if anyone with so many challenges could work under the circumstances. But this too shall pass, and you will survive. My prayers are with you and your family.
  3. by   Esme12
    remember the arms of friends far and near are around you my friend.....((HUGS))
  4. by   liebling5
    I will add my prayers and hugs to this mix {{{{Viva}}}}} I so enjoy reading your posts. Family is most important - your plan regarding work sounds logical. I read your post a few months back when you first returned to work. EAP is also a good idea.

    My brother has some serious mental health challenges, so I feel at least reasonably familiar with BP.

    You have come this far in life, and God will continue to help you as you navigate these recent challenges. You are an inspiration to a lot of us!
  5. by   enchantmentdis
    Wow, that is terrible. Good luck to you and your husband. I am so sorry.
  6. by   sesiliachan
    I know it's hard to believe right not, but everything is going to be ok. Tomorrow is a new day and who knows it might bring a miracle to you and your family I can't imagine what your going through, but I can encourage you to be strong. There's a quote by William Alger I want to share with you:

    "After every storm the sun will smile; for every problem there is a solution, and the soul's indefeasible duty is to be of good cheer."

    Just have patience, be strong and keep your head up!
  7. by   blueheaven
    I totally relate to your post. You said so many things that touch me and my current situation. I am so sorry that you and your husband are going through this horrendous thing called cancer. If you need or want to just talk about it, my listening skills have totally gotten better after the liver cancer ordeal my husband and I went through. (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
  8. by   RNOTODAY
    I admire you for your strength, and also for your insight to know, when you just cant do it anymore. Only you know that. And, for what its worth, ANYBODY going through what your currently going through would have trouble at this gig we all call nursing. prayers and good thoughts for strength coming your way from me.
  9. by   VivaLasViejas
    I just came back to this thread after perusing some of my other more recent posts, and I have to say WOW---the outreach from AN members has completely astounded me once again. I am SO grateful for each and every one of you!!!!!

    And, I have some good news for a change: there is an oral chemotherapy medication that could possibly stop hubby's tumors from growing anymore! We saw a cancer surgery specialist at the big university hospital yesterday who helped developed this drug, and has patients WITH METS who are still alive after five years. This is incredibly promising, and since the drug manufacturer charges only a nominal fee to those without insurance and/or who can't afford it, we'll be able to get it (the stuff costs > $8000/mo.).

    Not only that, there is no tumor obstructing his small bowel as had been feared, so the constipation and vomiting have responded to vigorous bowel care and he's now eating again and gaining strength. God really does hear our prayers, even if the answers come in some rather unspectacular (and inelegant) ways.

    Thank you again, one and all. I love you!!
  10. by   ClearBlueOctoberSky
    Glad you were make to get some good news, Viva.

    I have always looked forward to your posts.
  11. by   Flatlander
    Beautiful! Thanks for the good news update.