Bipolar Nurse Hoping to Open Awareness of Mental Illness

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Hello everyone,

I am new to the site and have chosen to join simply because of a previous post about mental illness and incredibly insulting comments that followed. I am posting a thread about this in an attempt to create more awareness about mental illness.I am hoping this thread will be positive and productive, so I have chosen my words very carefully. I am hoping that if you choose to reply you will be respectful to me and others. I would like people to think about the stigma people endure.

I myself have been diagnosed with Bipolar I. As a 23 year old RN with a BSN, I have had to work hard to be successful. Getting a job working on a NeuroTrauma unit. I missed 2 weeks of my senior year of nursing school, finally getting the diagnosis of Bipolar I along with confirming a diagnosis of ADD, still graduating with my class. I didn't even think to take a break. I obtained my RN License in October of the same year.

To bring up the particular post I mentioned, I couldn't help but notice that not one person in that thread mentioned how having a disorder makes you more compassionate, more open to anyone having trouble, and simply more sensitive. On the Neuro Trauma unit I had a patient who had witnessed a murder after a terrible decision to accept illegal drugs into her suburban home. Simply put it was a drug deal gone wrong. Her friend was shot, she was stabbed, pretended to be dead and had to run a mile and a half for a neighbors help. She was put on Protected Medical History given a fake name all while having multiple stab wounds and a chest tube. She was terrified. Her boyfriend even refused to let her stay with him because he believed she would be a danger to his children. I could just sense the pain and shame this woman felt. As a young nurse I refused to label her as a drug addict, knowing other nurses had already assigned that label. It didn't change the fact I had a job to care for this woman to the best of my ability. At the end of her stay, she told me "You made me feel safe" giving me a huge hug with tears in her eyes. I have never been more thankful or happy to have chosen nursing as a profession. I also think that moment truly speaks for itself in terms of having a bipolar nurse. I cannot believe that people think people with mental illnesses have no business being in the medical field. That they are a danger to their patients. I have had patients ask for me even when I wasn't even assigned to them. Asking to talk to me simply because they felt comfortable and at ease because of my care, good humor and willingness to listen.

I am extremely proud to call myself a nurse and the comments made about nurses with bipolar disorder were incredibly hurtful and truly insensitive. I just want people to know that Bipolar people can successful, take Catherine Zeta-Jones for example and Demi Lovato, beautiful and well respected people with serious talented. There are too many people who do not fully understand mental illness or what it's like to have one. So many people asking can I have a career with this disorder. The answer is yes, of course taking personal abilities into account but it should never ever prevent someone from believing they can't do something because of a condition impossible to change.

I ask that you give this some thought and if anyone has ideas about how to create more awareness I would certainly be open to suggestions and help.

All the best,

Hanna RN BSN

Thank you so much for bringing light to this issue. I am considering nursing as well for my career field. In fact I've found that hospice is my calling and that I want to open a campus dedicated to the well being of patients and their families. I too suffer from bipolar II as well as borderline personality disorder, depression, and anxiety. I have heard of people being successful, despite these illnesses, yet it's never heard about in the medical field. It gives me hope that there are other nurses out there that suffer from this illness and are successful. Your post also sheds light on how compassionate and patient us bipolars are. I thought it was just my personality, however now I'm considering that it is part of the disorder. Once again thank you for touching on this subject. You are an inspiration to us all!

Thank you so much for posting this. We have identical diagnoses - Bipolar Disorder I & Adult ADD.

It's exhausting trying to hide a monster.

Yes...yes it is:) I completely understand. I too refer to my illness as my monster.

I am so thrilled to read your post! I have schizophrenia and I just completed my LPN program. I passed NCLEX, too. I have been on disability for my illness for a few years but decided to go to nursing school. I want to be a PRODUCTIVE CITIZEN OF SOCIETY---that is why I went back to school! I am deciding whether or not I should take a part time job in home care nursing and get off disability or to just work 2 days a week to supplement my disability payments. I AM NOT A HORRIBLE PERSON because I am sick. I chose to volunteer my time in a nursing home while I was on disability----I saw the nurses and I liked what I saw, it looked like something I would enjoy doing----and I went back to school. I want something out of life! I am not dangerous. I am not bad. I am not a monster. I have a question: Do you think I should leave disability ( I would be making more money if I worked part time as a nurse) or do you think I should stay on disability and work to supplement it with 2-day-a-week work? You are a very brave nurse. Keep your head up!

Specializes in LTC, assisted living, med-surg, psych.

It all depends on what you can handle. You may want to start out part-time and then work into full-time if you're tolerating things well. Nursing is indeed a stressful occupation and can trigger episodes of illness, so you want to be sure you remain stable and practice the best self-care routine you can manage. Wishing you the very best!

I remember when I was in the LPN nursing program and a student was telling me about the very last final episode of One Life To Live. She kept saying that people were released or escaped from "the crazy house" and then she went on to tell me about what happened in the soap opera. I kept saying, "Oh you mean the mental hospital." She said "Yeah, the crazy house"

Every time she said crazy house, I would say mental hospital----but she was NOT getting the hint. I have a mental illness and I was appalled that she kept describing the last episode of this soap opera as people escaping from "the crazy house" and it seemed like the more I said "mental hospital" the more she said "crazy house". Perhaps its a good thing that she flunked pharmacology class and was kicked out of the LPN program. Who needs such insensitive, ignorant people like her caring for the sick (some of those sick people are mentally ill!). Good riddance!

To the nurses out there with any sort of mental illness be it bipolar or depression or any kind of disability, you guys are my heroes and are definitely encouraging me to go after my dreams. I just got accepted to a nursing program and start in less than 2 weeks. I am absolutely thrilled that I get the chance to go after what I was meant to do. I am scared to admit what my diagnosis is, but I'll tell you, it ain't pretty. My condition occurred in the line of duty while I was in the Air Force from 99-01. I was medically separated and honorably discharged at the age of 19. I am 32 now.

For the past 13 years I was told that I will never amount to anything due to my condition, that I will never be successful. I thought that I was going to be a CNA for the rest of my life. But you know what, I stopped that negative thinking, I put my mind to pass my entrance exam and I did with decent scores and I am competent enough to go through the nursing program. I am not going to lie though, I am a little scared. In the back of my mind I can hear my ex-husbands words over and over in my head..telling me I will never do good in life and I will always be in fact a piece of crap. I try not to let it bother me, but it still does. Not to mention other family members (cousins) saying that "no wonder you haven't gotten anywhere in life" still ring in my head. I am so terrified of failing. But I really want this. When I passed that entrance exam I felt so damn proud of myself. I feel as if I put my mind to something that I can do anything. It might take a little more work, but I know I can do it.

I just need all the support I can get. My mother and father believe in me and so does my siblings and grandmothers..I just need to stop thinking so negatively and believe in myself. To sit hear and read of the stories and personal accounts on the nurses with disabilities has me feeling that I really can do this. I am not making a post just to get attention, I really just wanted to thank the nurses out there with disabilities that are proving their peers wrong by being awesome at what they do. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you.

Specializes in Pediatrics, Emergency, Trauma.

Congrats captain-serenity!!! :up::up::up:

Take care of yourself, and believe in yourself. You have the ability to do anything.

Congrats captain-serenity!!! :up::up::up:

Take care of yourself, and believe in yourself. You have the ability to do anything.

Thank you so much. This means a lot to me. I am so excited to start that I go to bed late, dream about school and get up early!! I hope Viva talks to me. She was the one to inspire me at first. I appreciate your faith in me.Thank you so much for replying.

You can do it regardless of your dx, where you have been but it's up to you where you go. Many people have terrible problems but go onto do great things. Don't let ANYTHING stop you....You already sound like an OVERCOMER...We all have situations we must deal with in order to get to where we want to go. (viva knows this about me and my current sit.) Don't give up and don't let anyone tell you you can't do what you want to do. Be strong, know that God is with you and is watching over you every moment. And could I also say have courage and stay positive. Ok now I have to follow my own advice...

BeOne

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You can do it regardless of your dx, where you have been but it's up to you where you go. Many people have terrible problems but go onto do great things. Don't let ANYTHING stop you....You already sound like an OVERCOMER...We all have situations we must deal with in order to get to where we want to go. (viva knows this about me and my current sit.) Don't give up and don't let anyone tell you you can't do what you want to do. Be strong, know that God is with you and is watching over you every moment. And could I also say have courage and stay positive. Ok now I have to follow my own advice...

BeOne

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Thank you BeOne, I appreciate your sincerity. I have to keep telling myself to stay positive too. It's a daily struggle with me when negativity likes to nag at me. I just have to keep telling myself that I can do this and to grab this bull by the horns.

Yes Me too!! But we CAN do it!

Specializes in LTC, assisted living, med-surg, psych.
Thank you so much. This means a lot to me. I am so excited to start that I go to bed late, dream about school and get up early!! I hope Viva talks to me. She was the one to inspire me at first. I appreciate your faith in me.Thank you so much for replying.

Hello, captain_serenity, and welcome to Allnurses!!

I appreciate your comments very much. We never know when some adversity that we've gone through will serve to benefit others.....but when that happens, it's the best feeling of all. :)

As other members have said, you CAN do this. You are a survivor, and you have the right mindset for success. Yes, there will be times when life throws you a curve and you feel yourself slipping backwards; almost everyone with (or without) a mental illness has breakthrough events that rattle our cages and necessitate adjustments. But you have a winning attitude, and that will get you through when all else seems like it's falling apart.

I hope you come back often, and keep us posted on your progress through nursing school and beyond. Once you get to 15 posts, you'll be able to use the private messaging service and send PMs if you want to chat with someone off the boards. (Terms of Service still apply, of course. ;)) There are a number of nurses here with all kind of mental health issues---anxiety, depression, schizophrenia, and bipolar among others.

Wishing you the best, always!

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