After graduating from NS, I went directly to neuro trauma ICU. I've spent the last 10 months there. Today my transfer request came through for a general medical floor. It's been a difficult 10 months. I never did find a comfort zone. When others around me would get excited about the gunshot wound admission that was about to come, or some other level 1 trauma, I would get overcome with dread. I'd all but freeze with the level 1's when they came in. Once the pt. stabilized, I'd be ok. Even then, I hate road trips and am not fond of bedside procedures. It just never came together for me. I think I always knew I didn't belong there.
I feel relieved and am recovering some of that sense of excitement about my career that I had when I graduated. New possiblities. The unit I'm going to looks like a good choice, where I can gain some confidence in the basics. The problem is that I've still got to work on my ICU till I'm released to my new unit. There will be gossip, and whispers. Everyone will have an opinion. Ugh! Anyway, It's been nice stopping by this forum. I've learned lots. Good luck to you all!
Good luck! and don't EVER let anyone make you feel you have settled for "second best" truly you have a better chance of going into other nursing fields - in some ways ICU can be a dead end - unless you want to be a CRNA.
Don't get me wrong - I do like ICU but there are days when I look around and think "I would like a 9-5 job, say as a community nurse" and I look around and realise that I know zip about just normal care. You know when you have been in ICU too long when you walk into a ward and say "none of these patients have more than one drip - thay can all go home":chuckle
ICU is not the be all and end all.
Last edit by gwenith on Nov 8, '06