I'm an August grad and I have to admit, when I started nursing school my heart was set on working in an ICU. While I was in school, I applied for extern jobs to better align myself for an ICU bound pathway and NO ONE CALLED! I had no medical experience/background other than school. I think things went downhill from there. I got sort of depressed and I didn't work as hard in school. 2 of my friends 1 a medical assistant and the other a nurse assistant, had no interest in ICU jobs and GO figure were called, interviewed and landed SICU nurse extern jobs! What the fudge? I was happy for them but upset that I was never even considered. Now they love it. We have all graduated and of course they get to remain in the ICU as interns where they've worked as externs.
I constantly pine over this all the time. I feel like I didn't do enough to land a position in ICU. I should've campaigned, shadowed in the ICU, met some people, shook some hands, showed some enthusiasm, some drive an eagerness to learn. Now I regret it. And I continue to envy ICU nurses (well new grads at least).
I currently work on a Neuro floor as an intern and my manager is putting me in critical care classes so I will get my CCRN certification at least, and by March I can consider transferring to hopefully and ICU. The green eyed monster is a powerful being. am I wrong to feel this way?