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Joined: Sep 11, '03; Posts: 1,164 (15% Liked) ; Likes: 459
Registered Nurse from US
8 year(s) of experience in ICU, psych, corrections

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  • Feb 4

    Dialysis, psych and corrections. All are contract friendly in my state. At the prison where I currently work, IF you can get on day shift, the Department of Corrections is a good place to work. It also pays extremely well, around $80k a year. Dialysis is the way I went, for a few months anyway. Then I ended up in the state run outpatient psychiatric clinic. It was an excellent place to spend my time on contract. My supervisor had been on contract years and years prior so he was very empathetic to nurses on contract and in fact, had 4 of us working there.

  • Dec 21 '17

    My first job after getting my license reinstated was at a dialysis clinic. Unfortunately, 14 1/2 hour days and working with a very difficult coworker who insisted on leaving me as the supervising RN (a BIG no-no in my monitoring contact with the Board) had me looking for a new position within a few months of working there. I'm now happy to say I found my "niche" at an outpatient mental health medication clinic. We do not handle any meds and the prescribers don't even write for narcotics. I love working with the mentally ill and especially those who are dual diagnosis and struggle with their alcoholism/addiction. I feel as though my addiction, losing my license, and going from ICU to psych nursing was all part of God's plan. I'm right where I'm supposed to be! I work Mon-Fri, 8 to 5 with an hour for lunch. I never work holidays but get paid for them and have a pension with great benefits. But I wouldn't ever had looked at this type of nursing before I admitted my powerlessness over people, places, and things. There are jobs out there for nurses in recovery and I recently discovered that it was my RECOVERY that helped me get this job! They were looking for an RN with psych experience, which I have none, but went with me because of my understanding about recovery and all I had been through over the past year. I was hired on my 1 year sobriety birthday! Apply everywhere and take as many interviews as possible...the practice will be good for you. I became really proficient at how I brought up my restrictions and in a way, it helped relieve me of the remaining shame and guilt I was feeling over my addiction. My story was received fairly well and most potential employers were pretty understanding. A few even shared with me that they were in recovery as well! One lady who interviewed me had 23 years of sobriety from cocaine. Don't sell yourself short and remember, you were a sick nurse who is now healthy and in recovery. Be proud of what you have accomplished and the hard work you've put in with your sobriety.

  • Dec 19 '17

    I've checked that list periodically since surrendering my license and so far, I've not turned up on it. Do people get "skipped" over occasionally? Should I worry about it? I work in a facility that is state run and we have a fair amount of Medicare clients (although not nearly as many as when I worked Dialysis).

  • Dec 19 '17

    This was a big issue in the dialysis clinics in my area. Another nurse in recovery was put on "leave" until the issue was cleared up due to the large number of Medicare patients dialysis sees. He was able to return within about a month after clearing his name from the list. Since I was working in a dialysis facility as well (at that time), I checked the list but didn't see my name.

  • Nov 5 '17

    Hey, that's me! I work Monday through Friday 7am to 4pm with weekends and holidays off, no overtime EVER. I actually get to sit down and enjoy lunch (I'm on my lunch break now). I love, love, love my job in that I have the opportunity to do LOTS of patient education (I have 30 min with each patient individually). I never want to return to hospital nursing....ever. The best part is I'm only taking a small the hospital setting here, I would make about $31/hr. I currently making $30/hr. Small price to pay....literally. Especially when you have 3 kiddos with various activities after school :-)

  • Mar 26 '17

    So when I went into treatment, I did not fit the clinical diagnosis for alcoholism. I didn't meet the criteria of an alcoholic but certainly hit every single one of them for an addiction. So for the past 23 months, I've been saying "I'm an addict. I could easily turn into an alcoholic by switching addictions or the alcohol would lead me back into my drug of choice (opiates)." I tried NA meetings in the beginning and they didn't work for me so I attend AA meetings and love them. I attend mostly AA meetings that are open to ALL addicts/alcoholics, etc. But for those who weren't, I always identified myself as an alcoholic. At some, I got the feeling I wasn't all that welcome to be there because I was an ADDICT, not an alcoholic, etc. And as time went on, I did start to feel as though I was almost "misrepresenting" myself or there under false pretenses, which went against the principles of a program of rigorous honesty.

    Well, I've started to get all twisted and resentful about this over the past few weeks. I started to take a good look at myself and started talking about it at my Aftercare that I attend once a week (I continue to attend although I was released after a year by the Board because I love, love, love this group and feel it's integral to my sobriety). I also brought it to my nurse support group, my LADC, and my sponsor. Then, I prayed about it and sat with myself, thinking long and hard. I started to write. And write. And wrote some more. I pulled out my autobiography from Intensive Outpatient and noticed that there was hardly any of my experiences with alcohol written in there; only my recent past with my pill use. I started to make a list, beginning with my first drink at age 17. As I wrote, I realized there was behavior in there that didn't fit with a non-alcoholic. I won't go into details but suffice it to say, I was baffled as to why it was left out of my autobiography or why I had denied it for the past 23 months. Where was it hiding and why?

    So I still don't fit the CLINICAL diagnosis.....but I certainly fit every other outline of any other alcoholic out there. I was just too damn hung up on the clinical matrix of the whole thing to look outside the box. And you know what? I'm relieved! And freed! Yes, I'm an alcoholic!!! I don't have to "fight" anymore. Somehow, somewhere, I was fighting....subconsciously, I think. It was leaving the door open. Because you see, if I wasn't an alcoholic and just an addict, then years down the road, when I had left the monitoring program and the Board of Nursing in the dust, I could be sitting around the dinner table with my family (who doesn't quite get the "why can't you drink if you just had a problem with pills" thing) and they would think nothing of my having a glass of wine. That glass of wine would turn into 2, which would turn into 4 and then the bottle. Looking over my history with alcohol, I do not have a very good track record of controlling my use (trying to and failing, yes....controlling, no). I think this disease is so f'ing cunning, powerful, and baffling, that it was waiting for that day. I do. I think my denying that part of me, it was leaving that door open just a tiny bit. My husband, of course, is completely confused and left scratching his head "You're happy that you are also an alcoholic? Uh, okay."

    I think it stems from my mom and dad. My mom was an addict and my dad an alcoholic. My mom quit her drugs and moved on. She got on with her life and was able to quit. My dad, not so much. He continues to drink to this day and is in complete denial about his drinking. So in my twisted little mind, I equated addict = good, alcoholic = bad. I remember times where I would be pulling a bottle of vodka out of the freezer because it had been a hard night at work, then freaking out because "I was just like my dad" and dumping the entire thing down the drain. I was always thinking about not "becoming my dad". But when the pills popped up, it was okay because A)they were prescribed to me B)I was in pain C)I was a nurse and so that made it acceptable.

    This past week has been a HUGE week for me....this realization has given me such newfound respect for the disease of addiction. I've had respect for it all along but not like this. The fact that I could have been in such denial about the alcoholic part of my disease for this long (I will celebrate 2 years June 30th, God willing) is simply amazing to me. I cannot even begin to count the times I've uttered the statement, "I'm not an alcoholic, but I could be". I've always readily admitted the addict part of me but could not bring myself to believe the alcoholic part. And now, I'm ready to shout it from the rooftops. Well, not quite the rooftops, but you get the idea. I just had to share with others who might understand the significance this has had on my recovery. It's big. Really big. And I'm grateful. Really grateful. It's wonderful to be here today and I'm glad to be a recovering alcoholic/addict!

  • Mar 26 '17

    In my state, she would be given the opportunity to report herself to the Board of Nursing, which would allow her to be put on a monitoring contract. This enables her to have a "clean record" with no disciplinary action taken against her license once she is finished with the contract. If a nurse does not report herself, that option is no longer there and they would be put on probation. Still have to do all the same things in the monitoring program but there would always be a report of disciplinary action. For example, a colleage of mine was put onto a probation contract wherease I reported myself. If you look up my name on the Board of Nursing website, there is no disciplinary action noted. If you look up his, it says "YES" in big red letters for disciplinary action and that will always be there.

    That being said, each state is different. In my state, the Board handles all the disclipinary action and the monitoring. Some states utilize a separate entity, such as Texas. I went through treatment, intensive outpatient, then a year of Aftercare. I also did individual counseling, attend a nurse support group once a week, and call in daily for random drug/alcohol testing (and am tested about once a month).

    I am surprised she was still over the legal limit (she shouldn't have had ANY alcohol in her system prior to going to work) when she went to work....she must have consumed a fair amount of alcohol. I would ask where her judgement was being a nurse and drinking prior to going to work. I did much worse but then again, I was active in my disease and my brain was not working clearly = ) Now that I'm in recovery, I would never make those same decisions. Being put into the monitoring program has been one of the best things that ever happened to me. I was introduced to AA and the program of recovery, which has enabled me to be free from depression for the first time in my life (without the aid of medication). I sleep better, I lose my temper less, and I'm a better wife, mother, nurse, and all around person. I know not everyone feels that way about their state's monitoring program but I feel blessed that they were there to push me into discovering my issues with alcohol and other substances (pills especially). I hope everything turns out well for your daughter.