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    These past weeks had not been very pleasant for me: I had unfavorable encounters in my workplace with first, a patient, and then one relative of a patient who both bad-mouthed me. Then last night, to top it all, I had to extend my duty for another eight hours to fill the lack of staff.

    I know I made an oath five years back and that everything is part of the job but I can't help but wonder if these happenings might be God's way of telling me:

    "My child, you can now stop."

    I would not go into the details of both incidents but for the record, there is absolutely nothing I did wrong; the exact words I received from that patient's daughter were:

    "Lahat naman gusto mag-abroad, ikaw hindi ka makakapag-abroad. Ang mga nurse na kagaya mo, walang mararating!" (Everybody wants to work abroad, you will not work abroad. Nurses like you will never go anywhere!)

    For people who know me, I am never emotional. I do not practically care whatever people say about me nor am I affected of sorrow, pain, blod spills, nor death. I have a tough heart that's why I fit perfectly in the hospital setting. But that night, I thought those words were just TOO harsh. That relative and I merely met for less than an hour, maybe most was two hours, and she spoked of me a way as though she knows me her entire life. And the patient is fine, by the way.

    I know that people in the hospital carry heavy burdens, but surely it does not give them the license to hurt other people.

    I am one nurse who never answers back especially when the one I am talking to is already mad. I wanted to tell her that not all nurses want to go abroad, some wants to abort this vocation more than anything. And I am proudly part of that "some".

    That night, just like all other times, I just kept mum, listened and absorbed everything but when I was on my way home, I cried while praying.

    I asked God if all these sacrifices and heartbreaks are really worth it.

    I even asked him to take me away from this profession.

    I begged and said please a number of times.

    For consistent readers of my blog, I already gave my nursing career a deadline. That deadline is due in two months time. If you do not read often, don't judge me. I have exerted everything in my power to love this vocation, to be happy, to try my luck overseas, but to no success.

    Right now, I actually am giving myself several chances to stay: I opened my door to opportunities in scary-sounding countries just to be able to work overseas. If I be lucky to land in those places still as a nurse, I don't know what to expect. I don't know if foreign patients will be as unappreciative as some Filipino patients.

    I just need good money to finance my journalism course and I swear I would never greed for more. I dont care what job, for as long as I get that tuition fee money.

    For now, there is no definite route for me after April 2015. My dream of becoming a journalist is crystal clear but the path to it seems very dim.

    May the Lord help me.

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    Im in the Philippines Yes I bet we have a lot of guardian angels, good thinking!

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    Lev <3, canoehead, Sinman, and 56 others like this.

    Wondering why I chose eight? Each entry represents the standard eight hours nurses like me spend in one shift. Standard, eh? I frankly used the number because I need one; otherwise if I add up all the extended hours, this list could go on forever.

    So I hate being a nurse because...

    EIGHT - Nurses wear all white and we have to wear our hair up in a bun. You know how inconvenient plus hard to maintain that is? Okay, I came to duty on a heavy rain and mud starts making its way up my white uniform and there it is, a stain to last my entire shift. Also, putting my hair up prevents my it from being gorgeous! Really. That means no straightening, rebonding nor perming because I have to pull my hair back every single day. Oh God, I always envy those girls in high fashion corporate wears and all-set hairstyles. Maybe nurses should be allowed to look the same. Umm, just maybe.

    SEVEN - We don't get a professional fee (PF). We also have a license, and that makes us professionals too. But we don't have a professional fee and we live on meager salary regardless of how many patients we've handled or cases we've assisted.

    SIX - We do not have a holiday. Everyone in the industry can relate to this, I wouldn't dare watch out for holidays because I just feel hopeless. The entire country rests lazily on their couches while I pin high my dear cap.

    FIVE - We can't leave unfinished work. I mean office girls do that, do they? They can leave unfinished works and get to it the next morning. But nurses have to stay for as long as needed because we just can't leave things undone. Life is at stake and life can't wait.

    FOUR - We are the complaints center, if there is such a thing. When patients have a complaint on just about anything, they complain to the nurse. Not to the housekeeping staff, guard, doctor, or anyone else. Directly to the nurse; blame that for being too available.

    THREE - Refer this and that. Even if I know what drug to give, and I have it right here in my very hands; I can't give it, I always need to refer and ask for a prescription. I say nurses carry immense responsibility but very little authority, now how more frustrating can that get?

    TWO - We are not treated as professionals. Leaking faucet? Faulty telly? We are always asked to do things we are not supposed to do. I mean, we've studied four dreaded years and earn ourselves a license for what? Fixing your telly signal? Hell no. Nurses are professionals like engineers, accountants, lawyers, and your beloved doctors whom you do not dare raise one eyebrow while you mindlessly shout at your nurse like your entire hospital bill goes straight to her salary.

    ONE - Nursing is more than a sacrifice, it's suicide. From nursing school to nurse's station, enough sleep, enough food, nor enough rest is next to impossible. Here's one idea that I've thought of just now: nurses religiously monitor patients' urine output but at the end of the shift we realize we haven't once gone to the bathroom: and that makes ours zero. So,if there's one profession that wholly uses up one's existence: be it mentally, physically, and emotionally, you got it: it's Nursing.

    Gosh, making a hate list is tiring; but then of course, I also have a list of the things I love in this field...

    8.) There are always doctors and nurses who look handsome in white and you get to trifle with them; and suddenly, the world is a better place

    7.) I love it when I get in regular clothes and everyone stares in shock; as if I've got no right to wear nothing but white.

    6.) More seriously, as a nurse, I get to see life in all its forms: from womb to tomb.

    5.) I get to work with all the goodness of my heart, no PF needed. I'm quite about sure you wouldn't find nurses in hell.

    4.) I love being able to discharge patients in their improved condition. Nothing beats seeing them go home thanking you for their recovery. I guess that just transpires the very essence of this job.

    3.) My heart leaps when patients and/or relatives appreciate the work I have done; when they actually call me by name and boast that I am their nurse.

    2.) No other profession is as heroic as ours: giving up our own lives in order to save others.

    1.) Last of all, nurses may not be angels, but we're the next best thing.

    Oh you get it, I'm proud of this job: I just never admit it because it's just too much fun to complain. Kudos nurses!

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    Yesterday was just one of the most depressing shifts of my life; in fact it was so depressing I had a hard time thinking of the word.

    I was on a PM shift (2-10PM), and the lights suddenly went out right after our rounds. Yes, it doesn't take a genius to guess, there was a power failure on our side of the hospital building. Panic rose from everywhere as two of our patients are on mechanical ventilators and obviously, we have to manually resuscitate them. I ran from room to room assisting in ambubagging*, answering inquiries and providing comfort while my own perspiration trickles down my white uniform.

    To make matters worse, the blackout did not last for seconds nor minutes, it lasted seven long hours. I just couldn't face the patients' inquiries on whats taking the power too long; partly because I honestly dont know the answer and at that moment, I don't want to ask.
    At around 5 in the afternoon, everyone got restless of waiting, a lot of patients and their relatives were demanding for additional lights and emergency fans, but most of them wants a room transfer...

    And that includes my patient Ms. B. I planned to give her her due dose of antibiotic before the room transfer; but she suddenly shouted and badmouthed me on the corridor while a lot of other patients and their relatives stare. She kept on shouting and I felt very little at that time. I almost wanted to cry but I did not let my emotions come in the way. I told myself that Ms. B just got fed up of waiting; she came to the hospital to feel comfort and she's not getting it at the moment.
    I proceeded with the room transfer and once we were on the well-lighted and air-conditioned room, I gave the medication and went on my way.

    Sometimes even if you have exhausted all means to provide care, at the expense of your own needs, they still find you inadequate. And it sucks that nurses have to be always nice, in a way I don't even begin to understand.

    P.S. I am not blaming anybody for what happened, but just so you know, it did not feel right.

    *bag valve mask

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    MsV., CarribRN, and Joe V like this.

    This goes to my good friend Jamie Lane who will be taking the Nursing Licensure Examinations on July 2-3, 2011. Goodluck to you and to the rest of the 126, 826 future registered nurses.

    Exactly one year ago, I was one of those agitated nursing graduates who wanted to make their names longer by adding an R and an N. I was neither the best student in my college class nor during review, but I made it to the list of successful examinees in one take. I did not do much to prepare, but I'm sure I did enough. I know there is nothing much to share, but who knows, the following list might lead you to the oathtaking ceremony at SMX:

    1. Accept reality

    With three days before the big brain-drain day, accept that you can never learn everything. The normal values in your bedroom wall will remain where it is because you have just ignored what's written the whole review period. However, never doubt the answers that you are very sure of. The choices might be tricky, but never let your confidence falter.
    2. Master the art of test-taking strategies
    Techniques like choose the longest answer, the one with the most information must be the right answer, process of elimination, 'All of the Above' is always the right choice, and never choose 'None of the Above' are just some of the strategies that helped me pull off the NLE. You are not to use it on all 500-items, but when the time comes that you really do not know the answer, at least you have some strategies to use.

    2. Listen, but do not depend solely, on your review center

    They are centers for RE-viewing, a second take of what we have learned for the past four years. If you don't have anything to look back on or remember; you don't need a review center. You need another four years.
    3. Listen to your review center, but believe only half of what they say
    Do not waste your energy recording/writing down/memorizing the 'test answers' they give during Final Coaching; even if they claim that those are the actual test questions, believe me, they ultimately do not come out.
    4. Practice shading
    Learn that no amount of genius can calculate the weight of your hand against the Scantron paper: your license depends on gravity alone, and except for defying gravity, the next best thing to do is practice.
    5. Do not alter you circadian rhythm
    This applies specifically at the eve of the board exam; if you are used to studying until 11PM and hitting the sack at 12 midnight, follow this routine so you wont feel uneasy at the exam day itself.
    6. Bring the right kind of food during the exam
    This is no field trip, so better keep your oily junk foods; besides you would not want to put oil on you test paper, would you? Bring enough sweets, aside from not wanting to stain the Scantron paper with chocolate, too much carbohydrates will doze you off, and when that happens, your dreams of becoming an RN dozes off with you. Bring something sour or bitter like tamarind or coffee-flavored candy, this will wake you up when you feel like sleeping over Test II.
    7. Always keep calm
    At this time when you have nothing to count on but yourself, keep it cool and do not let anything or anyone make you nervous. Remember that you are not the only one who's having butterflies on your stomach, there are at least 126, 826 others feeling the same way.
    8. Do not cheat
    Keep your dignity as you answer each test item. Do not let a mere 500-item examination destroy everything you have worked for. A cheater do not in any way deserve to be included in the pool of registered nurses.
    9. Pray
    Pray before, during, and after the examinations; if God has really called you for the profession, there is no way you would not make it.
    Congratulations in advance to all the hopefuls. Remember that as nurses, we have our own destiny to chart, literally and figuratively. If unfortunately you did not make it this year, keep your spirit, there are still a lot of examinations ahead. Above and beyond, the board rating is nothing but a number.