So I graduated in Sept of 2012 and got my licence in Nov 2012. I started my first job as a nurse 2 weeks ago. When I went into nursing it was for a purely selfish reason. I love the feeling of knowing I help people. I enjoy comforting people and making their days just a little brighter. Thats why I went into nursing. With my new job at a LTC facility, We get 16-20 pts a nurse, I thought I would be doing this. During my first walk through of the facility EVERYONE was so nice and seemed helpful. I was told I would get 4 weeks of OR. She made it perfectly clear that is all the time I would get so don't ask for more. I went for my first day of OR and had no clue what to expect. The person who I was following was really nice. The first morning med pull (8ish) she handed me the pills and directed me at who was who. By the second med pull ( 10ish) I was on my own. I had no training on their computer for med pull and had no idea who was who! She said I did a great job and had me pull meds for the day and the next 3 days by my self. I was so over whelmed!! When I asked for help she said its okay to ask I am here to help but would groan when she had to get up from the desk. She then at the end of the shift told me I was not charting and going to get into trouble. I had no clue how to chart in their system!! Plus I though you did head to toe assessments on every one and charted it. But here you only chart on the PT who have UTIs, Infections, who have fallen with in a week, a new admission or getting skilled therapy. They also want certain info for each one. They are not all the same. Again I am very over whelmed. I feel like I spent my whole time running around throwing pills at people and not doing what I wanted. Which was to get to know them and helping them. Oh and if a Aides don't answer the light within 6 mins the manager yells at you, the nurse for not keeping track of the aides. ( Yes I got yelled at!) This week my 3rd week I have to go to a different floor with different rules and policies because everyone has to float between the two. I feel so over whelmed and cried every day to work and home. Today is my day off and I have to go back tomorrow and just want to cry because its so much to take in. Does this get better!? What can I do???? Thanks in advance for the advice and letting me vent.