I'm currently a CNA working in assisted living and I've been working there for over 2 1/2 years now. I was accepted into an LPN program that starts this September. I'm very excited because I've always wanted to be a nurse, but now I'm having second thoughts.
Although the facility I work at is "assisted living", we should be calling ourselves a nursing home. We have a LOT of complete care residents, and even a couple residents who need a hoyer. We have 3 floors, and there is only 2 nurses in the building for each shift. So one nurse for each floor (one floor is mostly independent residents, but a lot of them still need to be medicated). So each nurse in charge of medicating over 40 residents, taking doctor's calls, pharmacy orders, dealing with family members, treatments, answering the phone at the nurse's desk, etc etc. It just seems crazy to me, and a lot of them are overwhelmed everyday. I LOVE all of our residents and I really love working with the elderly, especially those with Alzheimer's and dementia. I really thought I had found my calling. But now I'm not so sure, because I see how stressed the nurses are and how overworked they are everyday. Are all places like this?
I'm also worried about making mistakes, and it scares me to be responsible for someone's life. As a CNA, I still feel like I'm making a difference, but I don't have as much responsibility as a nurse would. Did anyone else feel scared at first about how much responsibility they would have? I don't want fear to hold me back, but I can't stop feeling anxious about all the responsibilities that a nurse has.
Anyway, after seeing what the nurses go through at my job, I don't think I could ever work there as a nurse. But where else could I work as an LPN? I know I'm limited, and I'm sure almost all nursing homes/ALFs are like this, and that's what I'm scared of.
Should I just find another career?
Thanks for listening to me if you made it this far.