Before you felt confidant? I have been in my first job for 6 months and still feel quite nervous and still learning the ropes.
My unit is specialist and this week we saw 4 rare cases so we never have 'regular' cases. Today I was told I was to take a final yr student, I said I felt I wasn't ready and it wouldn't be fair to the student or me as I couldn't give her the learning experience she needed. I was told you'd be 'fine'.
I wasn't I have never felt so inadequate in all my life. Quite rightly so she was asking me questions I couldn't answer very well. (The conditions we get sometimes have no name) By the end of the day I was questioning myself and wandering if I'll ever know this stuff, and basically I felt so ****. I'm wondering if I should get a job on a general medical ward as I also feel im becoming de-skilled as we don't see regular stuff and do the regular things do I make sense?