Hello, I am a new Hospice nurse. I just started my new position about and month and a half ago. I really like the company I work for, I love everyone there! They are so encouraging and caring and I feel very supported!
At this time I have one patient of my own, I am admitting another tomorrow and I am covering for another nurse seeing her two patients. I am a little nervous about having 4 patients, even for just 2 weeks. But what I am really struggling with is the feeling of responsibility.
I tend to feel like I am responsible for these people 24 hours a day. I know in my head that this is not true, I have my set days of the week, and after 5 we have an on call person until 8 am and on weekends as well. But when one of my guys is having problems, (a stomach virus) and starting on a new medication I find myself thinking about him all the time. I wonder if he is doing okay, I feel like I am the only one watching out for him. I KNOW this isn't true, he is in an assisted living facility, so he has a med aid and a resident aide, but I am trying to get a feeling for how much of him is MY responsibility. Am I just there to manage the end of life issues and symptoms or am I there to manage the whole thing????
We see our patients twice a week, and manage the medications related to their hospice diagnoses, medical issues etc.
I guess this is just such a change from being on 12 hours and then going home and not thinking about your patients or your day. Does anyone have any advice on how to separate yourself after hours, not feel overwhelmed with responsibility etc.?