Quote from Marshall1
The choley may be a blessing in disguise..you can get some much needed rest and be relieved of some responsibility for at least a short period of time. I do not have children but have always wondered how people - mostly women- are able to handle/manage working FT and being a FT parent - I know - thousands do it everyday but it does not surprise me you are short tempered and exhausted - you would have to be being a caregiver 24/7, 365 between home and work.
Have you considered working for an insurance company? Or in an outpatient surgery setting?
The PRN medication doesn't sound like its enough..have you considered/spoken w/your doctor about something daily? Like Lexapro or similar that helps w/depression and anxiety? Someone I worked with went on Lexapro several years back for a lot of what you are describing here. For her, medication on a long term, consistent basis, gave her her life back.
I wish you well and hope you are able to move beyond all this and into a more settled, peace filled place.
When my surgery is all over and done with, I already told my PCP that I want to start some anti-depressants. Lexapro I think is a good choice. i was on Effexor for a year after my separation/divorce, but I didnt like the side effects.
I do spread my self thin and have soooo much other emotional issues going on lately, I guess it's burning me out.
Before this I interviewed with an insurance company. Made it through FOUR interviews, the last one being with the VP who gave me praise then a week later I get a rejection letter in the mail. I'll never know what happened.
Surgery is Thursday and I have been "sick" for a week. My body finally got tired, I got laryngitis and now I have a persistent cough for which I am on Advair, Z-pack, Veramyst and Tussinex! Hopefully these will get me through my surgery.
One more day of work. Praying for a decent one.
Thanks for the support. Much needed. I hope maybe an anti-depressant and some therapy will give me a quality of life back