I graduated nursing school
in spring 2013 and moved out to Nevada to get acute care experience and I am currently working on a surgical orthopedics unit. I've been working for three months now, just finished my orientation period, and am frustrated beyond belief with my job, my co-workers, everything. Nothing in nursing school prepared me for what it would be like to be a 'real' nurse. The surgeons are rude to the nurses, the nurses gossip about each other and are all 20 + years older than I and aren't friendly or answer my questions when I ask. The patients are all demanding a hilton like experience - I feel more like a drug dealer/waitress than a nurse who is helping people in need. All this in addition to moving to a new location where I don't know anyone is making me having what feels like endless bouts of panic attacks. I dread going to work, I found myself wishing that truck would hit me so I wouldn't have to go in to work. I get nauseous and light-headed and I'm exhausted 24/7 and just hate the direction my life is at right now. I don't want to hate my job, I don't know how to make it better. I absolutely loved my nursing preceptorship in the ER -- enjoyed going each day. Everyone worked well together, the docs, nurses, techs, all to help the patients achieve the best outcomes and then send them on their way (either upstairs to a unit or home). I don't know if nursing just isn't for me or if it's just the environment i'm in. If it's the environment, how do I survive getting my 'experience' so I can go on to other jobs?