Summing up my life for a year and half since nursing,
I have become deprressed, developed some form of schizophrenia d/t being so young and far away from family and with the condition of the world, of course Im paranoid. working nights, getting no sleep during the day, feeling so unfulfilled, unchallenged at work, attending to mag sensors instead of doing anything ACTUALLY medical related, ......
THE PAY IS GREAT....
my mental, physical, social, emotional health POOR!
I have to leave this profession for a while, I can't anymore. I am so angry, tired, miserable, weary, sad, worried, all of the above.
Sadly I am someone who is more concerned about responsibility, than living life, therefore the money is taking care of those responsibilities and life is ticking.
I am 24 years old, beat down, and exhausted.
The anger and frustration, unconsciously landed me handcuffed for the first time in my life 3months ago, d/t poor judgement or whatever it was, at this point, I dont know and not worrying about it. I don;t care.
I need my happiness and joy back. Simple and short.
I wish I can drop everything, and travel to a third world country and work for free. If I knew the process to begin that I would. ..
then there's my bills.
Life is stuck.
Just thought I'd share what has been going on in my mind for so long. Because I am truly at lost.
Thanks for listening to my vague summary.