This is going to be rambling thoughts so be warned.
When I was working in a SNF I used to always complain that I'm not working in the hospital getting the experience I need to advance. Now, I've been working at Telemetry floor at a community hospital and now I really feel like I hate my job. I've only been practicing nursing for 2 years now.
I always dread going there. I went from nights in a SNF to a hospital on day time. I always feel like I'm at everyone's beck and call. At the SNF, I felt like I had more control and I felt there was a slight less emphasis on this customer service crap. The families I deal with want so many answers from me but I'm just a nurse, then when I do give them answers I get: "I'd rather hear it from the doctor." Then why ask me?! During one code, I actually had a family member of the neighboring patient yelling at the code team because her uncle was wet. I really try to emphasize with the family, their loved one is sick so maybe you can't think straight.
Nursing was always a thankless profession but I feel like I get belittled and my intelligence insulted. I just want some autonomy and respect.
The people I work with are fine I get along with them, but I do not feel like I fit in. They have this....cliquishness about it. Maybe because I'm a guy or something.
My mother always told me that working telemetry was rough and told me to endure so that I can move on to better things. When I was in nursing school one of the primary nurses told me: "The moment you let nursing consume your life, it will make you feel miserable." When I go home I try not to think of my job, but it's literally left me with baggage...25 pounds worth of it. My second job as a faculty assistant is so much less stressful and I see more results from it.
What is it going to take to survive? I used to feel satisfaction from doing what I did. Discharging a patient from a SNF so they can go live independently was so satisfying. But now...it feels like a business transaction. I provide a service and customers leave and pay (or not pay haha).