and not a clue yet how crazy it's going to make me
If someone had shared with me what I am passing on to us, I'd've been a lot happier my first year of school.
How crazy it makes you may depend upon how perfectionistic you are.
I think one thing about us PB's is that we haven't been sitting stupidly under a rock, oblivious to the world, absorbing nothing. Developmentally, we are at a more serious place than our very much younger counterparts--we're past the "I'm going to live forever" thing and are into "what do I want to do before I'm too old and/or die." And, let's face it, it takes real interest, dedication and energy to do what we are doing.
There will be instructors who are younger than we are, perhaps, who may be lecturing about something we happen to know a little bit about. There may be instructors who may have some control issues, which will come out in some very controlling behavior, and that's gonna rub us the wrong way.
It wasn't until I got away from the traditional environment that I realized that a good bit of my reaction to these "things beyond my control" was because I had such a passion to get to nursing and finally it was within reach! The suggestion that someone might think I (or anyone else in the class) might cheat or otherwise "be bad," or that even though I knew
the material but the instructor either missed a detail she proceeded to test on or really, truly just didn't know her stuff (there were two we suffered through!), felt to me like a threat--something that could keep me from my dream.
Every thing I was feeling was because of something inside me trigged by the situation. Another difference between us PB's and "them," we've had time to gather triggers.....
So, if this helps you (fore-warned being fore-armed) retain your energy for study and learning, you'll be in good shape.
And your support system there sounds terrific! ((((to them and to you!))))