meaning that my clinical instructor chose to stick it to me everytime she got the chance. I will admit that sometimes I am a slow learner when it comes to hands on but when I do it once with someone by my side then the next time I am better at it, and then better and better with repeated performances. she chose to single me out for being slow, made comments about it in front of my peers, and staff. She disliked how I was always behind on charting my assessments, she wanted them done by a set time and I was, maybe just 30 minutes or so late... however my patients were getting excellent care. I was also helping other nurses, cns's or nursing students when I got the chance. She told me that if I wanted to continue doing the cna's job maybe I would be better off staying a cna. well anyways, I made it through the clinical experience with her hounding me every day and sending me home to cry several times. one time I even stopped to cry in a stairwell on my way to post conference just so I could regain my composure. on the upside, I feel like I have learned to deal with nurses that eat their young and passed my clinicals to go on and face my last 4 months in nursing school
!!!! Its been a long road but I am damn glad I am still pursuing it!