Quote from CHATSDALE
you will learn in time that death is not always the enemy
This is SO TRUE, Chatsdale!!
Sometimes the death of a patient will turn into a liberating and healing experience, because you will find, that as a nurse, you often can sense when the patient has made peace and is actually ready to pass on. Families and sometimes staff may not feel the same way all the time, but as a NICU nurse who has been there when a baby has become an angel, death can be a peaceful exit from pain and suffering. Sometimes death delivers babies from the terrible hand fate has dealt them, whether after a long battle with illness, or pain... I know I'm beginning to sound scattered, but I often feel a sense of peace, and a connection with my patient during their final moments, as if we have decided together that this is what needed to happen, that God has a bigger plan.
I have found that in the NICU, you have a few terrible days when you want to quit and never return, but you also have far more wonderful days when you can make a difference in a baby's and family's life forever. I would encourage you to look ahead to the difference we all can make as nurses, even if it means saying goodbye unexpectedly to a patient we have grown to love.
When you become so hardened that you don't respond to a patient's death with emotion, you have lost something inside, and need to take time to find that spark inside that makes you human and a great nurse....