I am very familiar with death being a friend. I realized that with the death of my mom she ask me not to pray for God to keep her alive but for God to do what was right and I did and she died. With that in mind I knew then that mom wanted to be released from the pain she was having to "live" with. I have always kept my composure and maintained a professional appearance for the family, however, I have empathy for the family and recognize the pain they are feeling and that is when I become emotional ( teary eyed and kinda depressed).