Im in a bad place right now, I dont belong here, Im not a nurse, but its midnight right now and Im alone in my pain and suffering and needed to reach out.
Right at the beginning of this month (9th january) I was in a car accident and my friend who was driving didnt make it. Its really hard to write this email right now, but i think its for the best. Im not looking for a sympathy vote, I just wanted to clear some things up in my head and on your feedback please
My friend didnt even make it to the hospital and he was only 22, how could this possibly happen, im so angry. This is one of my first concerns, that the paramedics spent too much time focusing on me, trying to get me out of the car to help, rather than helping him ...I feel such guilt about this right now.
AS for myself i was unconscious for 3 days due to hitting my head, and in the ICU, I also suffered broken ribs and a puncture lung.
When i woke up I was still on life support, ad was like that for a while before they let me come off the breathing tube, I dont really remember being too uncomfortable, i was pretyt much out of it.
im worried they spent too much time trying to save me rather than my friend
please help