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I have nothing to compare here so I wanted to get opinions from those wiser than I. I have been off of orienation for about three weeks. I felt my orientation was ok. I had an orientation that lasted three months on three different units. I feel that I did learn alot, but have a long way to go in regards to med-surg. During orientation, I oriented to easy patients. I feel this was a good start due to time management as a new nurse. I could take six or seven and still leave on time (night shift) BUT, now orientation is over and I am completely overwhelmed.
Last night, for example, I was ready to quit because I felt so discouraged. I had a patient dying of cancer (so was worried about him passing on my shift), another with respiratory issues with unstable sats, one with uncontrolled blood pressures, and one who couldn't empty his bladder with nearly 2000 cc urine, and a temp with an MD who didn't want to do anything about it (ended up calling on-call doc at 0130). Then this morning, one of my patients went downhill and I was so clueless that I didn't catch it! I was so wrapped up in getting paperwork done and focusing on her uncontrolled BP's that I didn't realize she was desating and developing resp issues. The day shift RT was the one who caught it and within an hour she was sent to ICU. Oh, and on top of that, I made a lovely little med error:( that just made me feel like Sh1t. And I got to fill out an incident report.
So, I came home and realized how unsafe I am d/t my inexperience and am wondering if this is normal staffing for us new ones. I was given what is considered the "front load" of 6. The load that needs close observance and is usually the higher acuity load. On top of this, my CNA was an OB nurse who I had to ask several times to do things that CNA's on my floor do and then she took an hour break and got called back so was stuck with no CNA for over an hour and a half. (Oh, and I am not dishing dirt on this nurse because I have worked with her several times in OB and if I were in trouble with a labor, I would want her for my nurse...oh yeah, I am also cross trained to OB and appear to be the unofficial float to OB from med-surg. I love OB and hope to be an OB nurse one day and enjoy floating there. My only complaint about this is that when I float, I lose my patient group and have to pick up another group when I come back.)
OK, so back to the story. Is this typical? Are other hospitals expecting us new nurses to take higher acuity right off the bat off of orientation or do they give you a bit of cushion.. you know easier groups with one or two high acuity patients thrown in for good measure. I think that I will make a good nurse someday, but right now I am just barely hanging in there. I am even wondering if this is a good place to work as a new nurse of three months. But, if this is typical then I will stay where I am at.
I don't want to be a quitter if I don't have to be.
So, any words you all can give me. Anything is much needed at this point.