So a few weeks ago, after getting the best job evaluation I have ever had in my life, I was told my direct supervisor that she was taking me off of charge nruse duty because some of my "coworkers" made generic complaints that I was "intimidating" and descibed me as Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde. No specifics were given (of course) and no names were given (certainly!). When asked "why arent you charging" by my coworkers, I decided to be honest. I said that I was removed from the position temporarily because there had been some complaints. This was met with wide eyed innocence and "shock"...and the inevitiable "Oh my gosh, how could they complain about you?? Do you know who did it?" I replied, "No, I dont. I wish I did, though, so I could apoligize and make things right."
The whole issue has somewhat died down. The other night, the backup charge called in sick....and guess who got "administrative approval" to charge? Me. We had a good night and I promptly clocked out at the end of my shift and went home and forgot about it.
The next night, I get an email from my supervisor asking me to precept a new graduate nurse. I replied that I would if she really wanted me to, but I thought that at this point in time, it would be better if someone else did (I specifically suggested my coworker who has been acting as back up charge for the last few weeks.) She replied, and I quote, that she thought "that would be a good idea, as I am anxious to get you back in the charge nurse role at the end of the schedule."
*PULLING MY HAIR OUT*
What the heck???? I so do NOT know what to make of this!!! The difference between WHAT I said, compared to what I WANTED to say are so different!!!! For starters, your back up charge called in sick and you need me???? Too bad! You should have thought about that before you slapped my hands and demoted me!! You want me to precept? Uh....what PLANET are you on? Im intimidating and tempermental REMEMBER? How can I precept when I am sooooo evil!
Someone, anyone....explain to me what is going through her head. I feel like I am embroiled in a great big mind game, and I cant stand it.