I am a (not so) new RN. I graduated Dec 2006, got my license Jan 2007 and got my first job March 2007. I still work there, so I'm coming up on 1 year, and I'm feeling kind of blah. I work nights on a busy tele/cardiac unit, I have 7 patients, occasionally some of whom I would SWEAR should be in CCU... and I'm getting oh-so-worn out by the job. I need a change. When I was hired, I made it clear in the interview that my goal was the ED. The nurse manager was and is very understanding, stating at the time that "many" nurses start on our floor and end up in critical care or ED, etc. It is HR policy that you must hold a position for 1 year before transferring (plus I *know* I've gained a lot of experience here). So, this all sounds okay so far, but there's one thing getting in my way: my own anxiety and self-doubt.
I really want to apply and start in the ED, but I am so afraid. What if they say no? What if I can't handle it? I have always been easily discouraged and put off, but I really want this. I almost feel like i would be relieved in some tiny way if they said "no", like it wouldnt be my fault. Is it normal to feel like I need a change so soon? There are people who have worked on my floor for like, 20 years. I also have issues with feeling 'young', like I should be more subordinate or something, and like I'm back in high school and I'm not an equal. I know I should get over it, but it's hard.
Thanks for reading my huge post. Any advice is greatly appreciated.:spin: