I have been working for a about 14 months on the busiest floor in the hospital (does everyone say that? haha) where I started as a new graduate. When we first started (I had another new nurse start at the same time), we were not leaving until around 9 pm often (for a 7-7 shift). Leaving at 8 pm was "early". Well, like I said it has been a little over a year, and for the past few months now I am almost always leaving at 7:45 to 8 pm..or so I thought. The other night I had 7 patients from 3-7 and I had to stay until 9 because at around 5:30 they gave me a transfer from the ICU. (This ended up being 7 patients). We use Medi-tech for our computer documentation. Anyway, I sent my manager an email because she said that whenever we leave late like that we need to send her an email or a note under her door explaining why. So I did, and also because the charge nurse gave me the 7th patient when there was another nurse that only had 5 patients.
My manager wrote me back saying she pulled all my time sheets since July and that I am supposed to be leaving between 7:30-7:45 and that I am only doing that 70-75% of the time, so I need to make a list of what is making me late and meet with her so she can make sure I am making use of my resources. Honestly this is really freaking me out. I have been wanting to leave the floor and the hospital for a long time because I feel like I barely get a lunch and sometimes don't have time to use the restroom even once during the day. I am moving in about 4 months and I knew this six months ago so I felt it woudln't be prudent to look for a different job and then have to leave that job in six months time to start at another one. Plus I really at the time wanted to see if I could handle this job and stick it out and learn even more. I know I have talked to the girl that started at the same time as me and she usually leaves around 7:40. Like I said, I thought the past few months I have been leaving around 7:45 to 8 on average.
There are the times you have a really bad day and get caught up of course. But the nursing assistants have been treating me so much better the past few months and I thought I was finally starting to get better at the time management. Now I am seriously doubting myself and I don't know EXACTLY what is causing me to be held up but often times I am still in the hall documenting on the computer waiting to give report while I document or I have one patients meds to give or I have a few patients I/O's to collect so I can document them Or I have some charts to check off before I can go. When this is all going on, often I don't give report until 720 pm and there have been a few times that I am there giving report at 730 pm. I can give report whenever the night nurse wants but I don't want to leave my computer in the middle of documentation to go to the nurses station to give report when they can see I am right there. I think sometimes they think I am busy so they just go get report on their other patients first or are getting their information together since I am not "bugging them" to get report. In the meantime, my pager often times goes off or PARTICULARLY when a specific charge nurse that works from 3-7 is on, I will get paged by the secretary to go to a patients room when it is after 7 pm. Maybe I am partly answering my own question...Maybe I need to make it a priority to give report ASAP..even if I am not finished documenting, so that this doesn't happen. The bad thing is, when that specific charge nurse and secretary are working (they are tight) then even if I have given report, I will still get asked to go to a room for an IV beeping or whatever "because it's right there". This is the same charge nurse who gave me 7 patients that night and the same charge nurse who comes in at 3 and goes to lunch between 530 and 6 or who is too busy checking off a chart when something is going on that I don't knwo what to do about.
I sound like such a complainer...but I am trying (along with a few other people) to figure out exactly what the charge nurse does. It is hard for some of us to understand not only because we aren't charge nurses, but because some charge nurses are REALLY helpful and a few seem to just sit there..there is a difference when you work with some of them...and it can make your life easier or harder. But I guess that is a seperate issue from the time management stuff. Maybe I should have titled my post "hard time adjusting after first year of nursing". The worst part is, now I am seriously wondering if I even belong in the hospital...I have never felt so incompetant in my whole life and I always thought I was a hard worker and try so hard to put the patients first and their safety first...I didn't want to be the nurse who never makes eye contact and tries to rush out of their room ASAP but maybe that is what it takes?
I have talked to night nurses and they say they don't know how we do it on day shift there..even other floors say they woudln't work this floor (but I am honest when i say I believe the manager is one of the very best in the hospital). I feel bad and incompetant and I never thought I would feel this way a year after starting.