Hi everyone, I have been a "lurker" in this forum for months, and finally decided to post. I have wanted to be a nurse ever since I can remember. My great aunt was an RN, and my aunt is a Nurse Practioner. Unfortunately, I did not follow my dream and I am now 38 and I want to be an LPN (for starters). You see, my entire life I have been plagued with low self esteem and mild depression. That meant for me that whenever I would express my dream to become a nurse, I would be slapped down by everyone around me and told "I could not do that." My low self esteem and depression made it impossible to speak up for myself and go for it. I was told I had to go to traditional college and get a liberals arts degree, so I did -- I got a useless degree in American Studies from, admittedly, an Ivy League school; graduated Phi Beta Kappa so I know I am not stupid. After finding the degree meant nothing and I could not get a job that I enjoyed, I again expressed my dream to be a nurse to those around me. Again, people started listing reasons why I could not do that, and I let myself be crushed. I then went on to get another useless degree -- a Master of Library and Information Science degree, again from one of the top schools
. A series of unsatisifying jobs followed. Again, I feel I was really destined to be a nurse and I have finally have told those around me to shut up, I am going to be a nurse. My "depression" turned out to be a deviated septum/chronic sinusutis problem (taken care of by sinus surgery), coupled with a vitamin D/calcium defiency diagnosed by my doctor (very interesting, I think. Too bad the issue was treated as "depression" when it was not). The low self esteem is still around but I am working on it. My real fear stems from the fact that I am not good at math -- I never learned algebra or geometry because I went to high school in Appalachia, and the classes were lacking and could not provide the extra help I needed. My math teacher used to shame me in class and told me I was stupid. I suspect I actually have dyscalculia. I have to take a test called a Level 5 Work Key to get into LPN school -- even though I have a Master's in Library Science. I am scared to death of this test -- how hard is the math? What if I fail and let my 3-year-old daughter down? I have a horrid job right now in sales (pays better than libraries) and they are getting ready to downsize everyone. That's why I chose LPN rather than BSN -- I need to do something right now that will be quick, as my daughter needs my financial support. Please tell me about the math, and does anyone think I am too old to follow my dream? Thank you.