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For the first time since I started nursing (I graduated last June) I feel really discouraged with myself. It all started last week. I made a med error. I was waiting and waiting for a now order to come from pharmacy...also waiting for the chart to come back from the unit secretaries...I gave the med iI "thought" was prescribed and low and behold it was the wrong dosage. Called the doc...no adverse effects...felt really stupid and humiliated. ( I mean the three med checks are basic and I ALWAYS do them. I don't know why I didn't think to just wait and do it properly :( I had an IV site that was looking bad and leaking and I was to hang Vancomyacin. I was uncomfortable with Vanco going into that vein so had the CCU nurse come and try to start him (he had a reputation of being a very hard start and I am relatively new so I deferred to her) She tried twice and could not get it and said "His veins are shot...they are all scarred" So I called the doc and got one of his ATB's PO and took a telephone order to hold the vanco. When the night crew came on there was a cracker jack RN who had served in the army and low and behold he started it..."Yeah". It was the end of my shift so I left. The next morning I get a call wondering why the vanco order read "hold" and why the orders where never noted....I assumed the night nurse would have handled things. ALSO that same night I had a lady who passed away (expected) This was my first death so I cleaned the body, comforted the family, called the mortuary and asked my charge what else to do. She said I had to fill out this paper which I did and the morturary guy came and picked up the body. Then I got a call from the supervisor...I did not contact the doctor... BIG MISTAKE! It may sound silly but I really did not know I was suppose to call him. In twenty-twenty hindsight it makes a lot of sense. (Now I am feeling really stupid and humiliated.) THEN LAST NIGHT...my first night back ...everything smooth...after report the night charge came out and said "That sliding scale insulin report should have been "BLAH BLAH BLAH" Dr. so and so has terrible handwriting...I know because we discussed it with Days , they had a question too. This insulin dose seemed a little off for the BS (that should have been a red flag right there ) but I double checked it with another RN as is our policy and I also asked the patient about it and she said "That's right - my doctor and I are right on top of my diabetes" No clarification order had been written even thought there had been questions but the bottom line is that I SHOULD HAVE QUESTIONED IT...again, no harm came to the patient. At peak her BS was still 130. Again 20-20 hindsight...I was lulled by this patient's very hands-on management of her diabetes and the fact that the order looked clear to me. So, I filled out an UNUSUAL OCCURANCE report AGAIN. The second in as many days. I know I am a new nurse. I expect to have a growth curve but I FEEL SO DOWN and am beginning to wonder If I lack judgement. I did very well in school and had excellent recommendations and a very positive preceptorship and now I feel like I will be considered incompetent...or maybe I should find some other area of nursing that doesn't have so much stress. PLEASE....sister and brother nurses.... I need perspective.

Specializes in Med-Surg Nursing.

I think that I can safely say that every nurse has made at least ONE med error in her/his career. If someone says they have never made one, then I believe that they are either GOD or are lying! Not that I am trying to make it sound like no big deal. Shavsa, don't beat yourself up over it. Move on and take it as a learning experience! {{{{{{Shavsa}}}}}}

Wha'sa'matta'wichew, you feeling down, huh? Your only human - YOUR SUPPOSED TO MAKE MISTAKES - They are the only things you can truely call your own (B. Joel)

You should try to laugh at your frustrations, and just wonder about that death thing. That must be an experience.

The meds mistake, you hafta be careful. Go ahead and beat yourself up for that. I'm learning in nursing classes how that is against the law, to make a mistake when it comes to prescribing drugs, so let any guilt or self-abuse over the meds burn in real good :-) Like monopoly, you probably get aphew "get out of jail free" cards. Don't use'em up :-)

Cracker jack RN???? Was there a wrapped gizmo prize in his box?

You were brave to handle the death. Of course it's gonna impact you in unknown ways because, unless you do something like that all the time, your brain takes awhile to process that sort of input. We all fear death; no exceptions.

I should shut up now, sorry.

Have a great time doing something for yourself!

Hey Mario,

You been listening? We all make med errors. When you consider that the hospital I work for holds us responsible to check the home meds against what the Dr. ordered and then inquire about the discrepency. Med error if you don't. Try getting that information when your patient tells you he takes 2 pills for blood pressure and can't remember their names. Of course it is 2AM, my way around this is to call the family at 6AM and ask. But, how rude is this. Calling someone and hopeing they are awake. I do this to keep the day shift off my back. Med error if the order is transcribed wrong and you only caught the first 2 errors the previous shift made. That is on you also. So they got us checking the orders right from admission, on all shifts. Every nurse and every unit secretary. It goes on from there. There are a million ways to be wrong in nursing. I seem to get slapped with a new one every month. Nursing will make you feel bad once a week. You learn to blow it off. The first 5 years and sometimes thereafter nurses spend sleepless nights worrryyinggg about what they did and if it was right. Then you learn to say, can't change it, (I will never do that again). And you don't, but there are a million other ways to ****up.

All nurses have made errors and we all live for another day. Two things that I advise is 1. if you have any doubt, discuss it with an experienced RN and if you still have a doubt, call for clarification. In the end it is your decission. It is unfortunate that you were not able to deal with the death of a pt. during your clinicals when there is the direction and support of your instructer and class mates. There is currently too many experiences that the new nurse must face as an RN rather that while a student with all of the extra support that goes with that. It makes being a new nurse harder, but you can make it. We all did. We all had the first time for everything. With your sense of caring and responsibility, you will do just fine. Know in your heart of hearts that you are doing your best. No one can take that away unless you give it away.

Specializes in Community Health Nurse.

TO SHAVSHA....((((HUGS)))) AND A BIG :kiss !

Welcome to nursing! ;) Ahhh, the days of med errors rings a bell in me head! :eek: :imbar I gave 25mg of Dilaudid to an elderly patient instead of 25 mg of Demerol that was ordered. Both meds came in a white and brown box at that time, and were stocked side by side in the "old med cart". There were about four nurses grabbing meds from the cart, reaching over one another (it was a hectic surgical unit), and we were all running around like energizer bunnies that day, but then I usually am anyway! :chuckle I realized my error after I had given it, wrote myself up, gave it to the Nurse Manager, reported the incident to the patient's doctor myself, and thank God, they were both so understanding. The Dilaudid 25 mg that I gave only made the elderly patient sleep two hours longer than she would have on the Demerol 25 mg. She woke up so refreshed and no worse for the wear! Thank The Lord! ;) You'll go through things in nursing that will make you second guess your choice of being a nurse in the first place. Forgive yourself, and move forward having learned from mistakes made. We've all been in your shoes at one point in time! Welcome to the world of nursing, Shavsha! You are now one of us! Laughing with you, not at you! :kiss

"Experience is the name everyone gives to his (her) mistakes." -- Woodrow Wilson

Read my Motto...

Specializes in Everything except surgery.
Originally posted by Renee Williams

TO SHAVSHA....((((HUGS)))) AND A BIG :kiss !

Welcome to nursing! ;) Ahhh, the days of med errors rings a bell in me head! :eek: :imbar I gave 25mg of Dilaudid to an elderly patient instead of 25 mg of Demerol that was ordered. Both meds came in a white and brown box at that time, and were stocked side by side in the "old med cart". There were about four nurses grabbing meds from the cart, reaching over one another (it was a hectic surgical unit), and we were all running around like energizer bunnies that day, but then I usually am anyway! :chuckle I realized my error after I had given it, wrote myself up, gave it to the Nurse Manager, reported the incident to the patient's doctor myself, and thank God, they were both so understanding. The Dilaudid 25 mg that I gave only made the elderly patient sleep two hours longer than she would have on the Demerol 25 mg. She woke up so refreshed and no worse for the wear! Thank The Lord! ;) You'll go through things in nursing that will make you second guess your choice of being a nurse in the first place. Forgive yourself, and move forward having learned from mistakes made. We've all been in your shoes at one point in time! Welcome to the world of nursing, Shavsha! You are now one of us! Laughing with you, not at you! :kiss [/

I couuldn't believe you wrote that Renee,.... because that happens to be the very same error I was referring too!!! It wasn't until I went to unscrewed it from those metal syringe holders we used, that I realized my error.

And I remember those "old med carts" too.

Originally posted by Renee Williams

I gave 25mg of Dilaudid to an elderly patient instead of 25 mg of Demerol that was ordered[/b]

Look on the bright side, Renee: you probably did the patient a favor. I hate Demerol! It's a horrible drug -- especially in the elderly. I find it amazing that some hospitals still have it in the formulary for pain control. The only -- only -- thing we use it for is to control shivering in post-op patients.

Still, a med error is a med error.

Specializes in Community Health Nurse.

Hi Brownie46! :)

Get out of town, girlfriend! :p You really did the same thing I did? I sure hope they changed the box colors by now. No two boxes should have the same color when they are narcotics. Do you agree?

One time I gave a cepacol (sp?) lozenge to a patient in "bed B" when it should have been given to patient in "bed A". The patient in bed B said, "Oh, how did you know I needed a throat lozenge. My throat is so irritated right now. Thanks, hon!" My reply was "No problem Mrs. "B". Hope your throat begins to feel better. Then patient in "bed A" said, "Honey, do you happen to have my throat lozenge on you, too?" I looked over at patient in bed "A" and she was sucking the life out of that lozenge. I told the patient in bed "A" that I would go get her one, too. When I rechecked the medrecords, lo and behold, the lozenge actually belonged to the patient in "bed A", and the patient in "bed B" did not have an order for a lozenge. Both of these women were very alert and in their early 60s.

Due to my med error, I told the Nurse Manager what I did, she laughed, rubbed my back, and said, "That's okay, Renee. How about tagging each wall in front of the beds of your patient assignment to help you remember which one is "Bed A", and which one is "Bed B". Since I was new on that job, I did exactly as she said, and it really helped. That was in 1987, and I am still laughing about that one. Thank God I only gave a throat lozenge.

Well, I'll be back after Survivors goes off! See ya! There's some real cuties on there this time. ;)

Specializes in Community Health Nurse.

I'm back! Love that Survivor show! ;)

Matt, thanks for your encouraging words, too! :) Sometimes our med errors could be a lot more serious, so we should just be thankful that whatever med errors we made, didn't cause a patient's death, or cause them to be worse off than they already were prior to being given the "wrong med". ;)

Hey look on the brihgt side you did not kill anyone...

we all have been to " that place"

don't be so hard on yourself

you will make it

Specializes in Everything except surgery.

Get out of town, girlfriend! You really did the same thing I did? I sure hope they changed the box colors by now. No two boxes should have the same color when they are narcotics. Do you agree?

Yes...Renee...SAME med...SAME dose...probably the SAME reaction from the doctor...etc. And YES..you're right... they shouldn't look a like. What I believe I did...was in the reaching...and you know how that went...reaching for the Demerol, and picked up the Dilaudid instead. But instead of focusing on what I was doing...I let myself be distracted. Our med carts were kept in front of the nurses's station, and you would set up your meds there, and then put them on those "trays" with the med cards. Everyone would be standing there trying to grab their meds at just about the same time. Ahywho...no excuse for not doing the "5" R's...and checking the med with the med sheet, for the right drug, the right time, the right pt, the right dosage, and the right route.

Also I understand A/B situation bed situation . I worked in a facility last nite, that bed 1 was next to the window, and bed 2 was next to the door. I thought I was the only one who thought that was backwards. But another agency nurse came up to me...asked which was which also. No matter where I go ...I take the med sheet with me to the room and check it against the pt's. ID band so I KNOW I have the right pt. If I'm in a facility where everything is on the pc, I print out a list of the meds for each pt.

Except at Brooke Army Medical Center (BAMC) everything is on pcs, and they have a terminal at each bedside in the CC units.

:cool:

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