Warning Long story ahead: I am an LPN 6 to 8mos from being an RN. I have been a nurse for 7yrs all in LTC for geriatrics or multiply handicapped. My last job I had just started it was in geriatrics and I was 87 days in. I was severly injured assisting to lift a 400+# resident. We only had two lifts in the 100 bed facility both outdated. Anyway I recieved a crush/twist injury and was taken to the ER. Of course my PCP wrote me off of work indefinity pending further testing. I was immediatly terminated. They said not fired just not going to keep me since I was still in my 90 days. It ended up being a pretty major injury I have been off on worker comp for 2yrs. In that time I have had two surgeries and will most likely need more. After a long tedious very depressing, dehumanizing court battle I won. I have had the two surgeries and intense physical therapy. While I have been off I continued with my RN classes and am now 4 classes away.
The whole experience has been very traumatizing to me. I know that sounds strange unless you have been through it. Physically it has been very painful but I really think it was almost way more hard emotionally. It was like it destroyed me inside. All my confidence, all my identity I guess I had wrapped up in my career. I got a late start. I did't finish high school instead quiting school in my freshman yr to have my son and get married to the man I remain happily married too. I returned for my GED when I was 27 and ended up inspired to go on to college. When I finally finished getting my LPN and went to work I was completely shell shocked. I had only been a stay at home mom cleaning houses for the elderly on the side to help with our income. I was completely shocked at the sometimes pure meanness of coworkers and management. The whole thing was just not what they lead you to believe it will be in school. The one thing I did love about it though was the residents and working 3rd shift I got to flex my organizational skills. I can not say that I have as of yet had a good work experience. If it isn't management then it was a toxic work environment. Then of course when I got hurt and the facility turned on me going so far as to LIE I was devestated. Of course their lies came out and they ended up fined and I won. But still if I had it to do over again I think I would have tried to hide how badly I was hurt just to avoid all the heart ache.
It took me 8 weeks on the workers comp job search
program which is 15 face to face contacts per week. Oddly enough if your are perfectly whole and healthy on unemployment you only have to do 3 face to faces. How strange is that? Anyway 8 weeks and 120 doors slammed in my face later I got a job. It is in a small 50 bed LTC facility. My MD didn't want me to return to LTC ever but I was having no luck anywhere else so when this one came up and they were willing to take me injuries/restrictions and all I couldn't not take it. jBesides I do love geriatrics. I must admit though that the two days of orientation did not go well at all and I am scared as all get out. I feel confident that I can do the job honestly that is not what scares me it is the people ie management and coworkers that scare me. I could use any prayers from those that may be into that and encouraging words for anyone into that. I have to do it and I know I can I am just so dang anxious. I was good at what I did and I know I still can be I just have to get this anxiety under control. Anyway that is my story and I am sticken to it I just needed to share it with those that might understand and be supportive. Thanks Bell