I am currently employed at an LTAC that is over 60 miles from where I live. I thought when I took the job that the drive would be worth it. They offered me more money than the place where I was working, and I thought it would be a better place to work. (the greener grass, you know). Well, I have been on my own for about three weeks and I hate it there. It's not that the patients are hard to take care of, but the policies of this place are such that the patients are busy patients. I hardly get a chance to sit down until half way through my shift when I finally get to take my lunch. Hardly any of the nurses are friendly there, some are downright rude. Everyone is so busy, techs included, that if you need help with anything, you have to hunt for several minutes to find someone to help you. Forget answering call lites in a timely manner. By the end of the shift I am so exhausted that I can hardly walk to my car, then I have to drive another hour just to get home. Anyway, I guess I am just whining about the work. If the job was a lot closer, I could put up with the BS for another 2 weeks, but I just can't bring myself to make that drive one more time. It is through busy downtown rush hour traffic, at a time in the morning when I'm not real awake and alert to begin with. I hate getting up at 5am, and I find myself getting physically ill every night before time to go to work. I just can't do it again. I don't want to be there, I find myself not smiling at work because I'm not happy to be there. I am constantly hearing "if you do this, you'll get wrote up." "If you don't do that, you'll get wrote up." This is directed toward the nurses, some of the techs seem to be able to sit around doing nothing and get away with it. I feel like the patients at this facility aren't getting any better care, than they do at the facility that I used to work at, even though the nurses at the second place have twice as many patients. I know it's because the nurses at the second place don't have as much stupid busy work to do so they have more time to take care of thier patients. I don't know, I talked to the DON at the second place and I am scheduled to start full time back there in two weeks, so I'm not walking away with out a job. And I know that even if I don't go back to the first place, that the second place has a bunch of needs right now so I'm pretty sure that I wouldn't be losing any money. I might not be making as much per hour, but the drive is only about 32 miles as opposed to 61.5 miles. And not through heavy downtown traffic at that. Sorry this is so long. I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening.
Oct 24, '06
I totally relate to you. Last January I went to work in a large facility that was about an hour and 15 minutes away from me. I really thought I was doing well, I loved the people I was working with, knew I had a great job and should appreciate it. I have to say I never felt as you did about going to this particular job although I have felt like that about previous employment. SO, about 2 weeks ago I fell asleep on my way home from work (I work nights). I woke up driving off the road. Luckily it was into a grass median and I hit no one. But it scared the bejesus out of me. Aside from concern about my own welfare, what if I hit someone else? I could never live with myself after that, especially now that I knew what affect the drive was having on me. When I got home, I called my nurse manager immediately and put in my two weeks notice right there on the phone. She was very understanding and said she completely empathized with me. The next two nights I worked were awful for me in regards to my trip. Both coming and going I got almost panicky and was terrified the entire time, more so coming home in the morning. My driving suffered, I am sure. Well, the second morning I left work (after psyching myself up in the parking lot), I was run off the road by a tractor trailer. And that was it, I was done. I almost called someone to come get me and take me home, and was seriously considering leaving my car by the side of the road. I made it home and called my boss again, telling her my resignation was effective immediately and told her why. I can't say she was pleased, but she did understand and wished me well. That, of course, was after she told me I would be ineligible for rehire if I ever wanted to come back. I told her I respected that fact but felt I really had no choice, that I was no longer safe on the roads due to my fear. I should add that I'd already had another interview at a hospital the previous Friday and knew I had that position, but it wouldn't have mattered, I would have quit anyway.
Regarding being miserable in your job, I suggest you see your physician. You are being physically, mentally and emotionally affected because of your place of employment. From what I gather in your post, you might not be eligible for FML yet, but you can certainly take an immediate LOA for these reasons and put in your notice at the same time. While I never would encourage someone to quit w/o notice, I completely understand that sometimes we need to do things we aren't completely happy with. I never spoke to my supervisor face to face because I was so far away from my work, and you have the same issues. I took FML when I had a job where I was so miserable that I would literally have panic attacks walking into work. That job was not a good fit for me and I ended up being extremely happy in my next position.
Please take care of yourself and do what is best for you. If you need a week or so off, take it; find another job and give them a start date that works for you!! I've had 2 weeks off between jobs, just started orientation yesterday; I feel great and am even driving again!! All by myself!! LOL But truly, my fear was almost incapacitating. I am also extremely excited about my new position, it's in a small rural ED, totally new experience for me but I feel I am going to learn a lot.
Good luck in whatever you do and let us know how things go. I will definitely by thinking of you. Feel free to PM if you want.
Last edit by ParrotHeadRN on Oct 24, '06