Dilemma Nursery Vs Hospice?

[Kimpossiblenurse]

I have been a nurse for 25 years. My background is varied with ICU and NICU. My recent company closed, and I have been job searching. I received two offers today, one from level 1 nursery, and one from hospice. I am very torn in which to accept. They offer the exact same amount of pay.

My dilemma - I lost my son five months ago in a car accident. I was able to return to work realizing that I get through each day, learning to live with what happened, but I will never get over it. I like to look at the positive side of things. I choose to believe that we go through things to prepare us for things to come. I am certain by going through this grief, God will use me to help others.

I am also currently in my last year of an MSN program as well.

Choice #1: Nursery, level 1, not to strenuous, offers three 12 hr shifts, 30 min drive to the hospital. Room to work with my school schedule.

Choice #2: Hospice. I know I would be dealing with death, and I believe I could help others with what I have been through, as well as my past. Not sure of the physical demands. Offers two 12 hr shifts, 5 miles from my house. Extremely flexible schedule - I pick when I want to work.

I do not want to fool myself in what I think I can handle. I would truly appreciate someone's input and opinion. I need to make a decision.

[Been there,done that, ASN, RN]

I am so sorry for your loss. I think 5 months after losing your son is way too soon to subject yourself to the daily reminder of death.

That's just me, good luck whatever you decide.

[Kimpossiblenurse]

Thank you so much for your honest response.

[iluvivt, BSN, RN]

I would take the nursery job as I think it would be better. You will have more interaction with coworkers and I think right now that would be a good choice. It also would be a great opportunity to learn a great specialty. I think hospice right now it just too much for you so soon after you loss.

[4boysmama]

as a hospice nurse, I definitely think that 5 months is far too soon for you to be considering a hospice position. In the best of circumstances, it is emotionally trying each day. I have no doubt that once your own grief is not so fresh, you will be a tremendous presence and comfort to hospice families...but right now, you are in the midst of your own bereavement, and it will be exceptionally hard to compartmentalize that from your pt's family grief.

I would take the nursery job, and see how the future plays out for hospice - you may find yourself with another opportunity down the road.