I have been really down about my nursing career lately. Not sure if I am becoming disenchanted with nursing or if its that i haven't had a vacation since 2002.
I do L&D, mother/baby and newborn nursery. I knew when I went to nursing school
12 yrs ago that I wanted to work OB. At first I thought that L&D was my first love. Then I discovered the joys of working in the nursery. I like working with the newborns and "stabilizing bad babies" until the transport tem arrives. I also enjoy working with the new Moms on mother/baby, I love doing the teaching. I liked the fact that I could jump between all 3 areas for a change of pace.
Then 3 years ago I started doing travel nursing and have done mainly L&D as that is in higher demand than the other 2. I find that I dread going to work, have a hard time dealing with the labor patient, even though I still strive to do my best by the patient and give them a good labor experience. I am not enjoying the high risk of doing labor especially after being named in a lawsuit where I was not the primary nurse, but was named as I was the other nurse on that night and had signed the "chart" as going in and assisting the primary nurse when the patient was first admitted. I just don't feel like taking the risk anymore that labor involves.
If I could think of another career that would pay me similar income and I would enjoy I would jump at it. Does this sound like burn-out or disenchantment or someone who needs a vacation.
I have taken a permanent position back home as I miss my family and friends, but is L&D, which I am not looking forward to.
Thank you for any advice or insight.