I've been an RN 4 years. I work med/tele dayshift. I have battled rounds of burnout, but this time I am soooo fried. I just know I need to get off the floors. Don't get me wrong, though. I love direct pt care/bedside nursing. I love most of my coworkers. I am sick of the B.S. of the floors- short staffed, high turnover, following a few crappy nurses who must've got their license out of a Cracker Jack box. I'm sick of being the doctor's babysitter, the resident housekeeper, waitress, Physical therapist, counselor & RN all rolled into one. I feel I am a bright, caring, team player. Most of my coworkers would be surprized to hear it, but I am thinking of working in another profession for a change. I would stay in nursing, if I could find a job with less stress and direct pt care. I don't want to do home care or Public Health...have heard some bad things about it & am not interested. Not interested in management. I was hoping for a clinic RN or ambulatory care RN job, but haven't found anything in the past 2 years of looking.
Call me crazy, but I am thinking of trying something else for a change. I can always head back to nursing if it doesn't pan out. But the instant I shared my "enthusiasm" with friends, aquaintences & family...all I hear is flack. Hey, I KNOW this career change would mean a $10,000/year pay cut, and require 1 year of additional college education. But I think I might like it, fool that I am.
The thing is, in my current role, I wake up every day feeling so depressed. I KNOW I probably won't be getting a break. I'll be running my a$$ off nonstop from 7a-16:45 p. I have floated to all the other floors & they have the same B.S. as mine. I was hoping (since 1999) that we would get some better staffing (AB394?!), but no such luck.
I am tired of seeing new RNs go from enthusiastic to bitterly disappointed. I'm tired of giving 120% and being told to give more.
I know some of you have been where I am. I feel like my family & other "non nursing" friends have NO IDEA of the stress & responsibility nurses face. Yes, I make good money. But I am unhappy! I am stressed all the time! I have nightmares!
What thoughts or suggestions do my fellow RNs have for me? I was excited about trying something else, and still keeping my license current "just in case."
I just wanted to vent a bit, to someone who might understand...
Thanks for listening!