I am a new nurse--I have been working at my first job (LTAC ICU) for about 7-8 months now. I made a minor (?) mistake at work and it is weighing on me.
The last shift I worked I was caring for a patient that had high gastric residuals--pt vomited on previous shift and tube feed was turned off. On my shift I pulled off 200mL, next check residual was only 30mL so I decided to try starting tube feed again. I passed this on in report.
Well, when I woke up (I work nights) I had a voice mail from that nurse saying that the GI doctor was irritated because I didn't chart the residuals or when I restarted the tube feed, and she was just calling to remind me it is important to chart things like that etc...Now this nurse was my preceptor when I was on orientation, so I don't think there was anything wrong with her calling me about it, nor do I think she was trying to be ugly. I know I charted when I started the tube feed, and yes I did forget to chart the residual (part of this is because how we chart residuals is weird in our EMR and I will be looking up policy the next time I work).
But it has just been on my mind. I feel like I will never be good enough. And I am tired of this culture of "the doctor is mad at you" or "doctor so and so will chew you out so you have to be careful"...I don't know if this is just my facility or if it is like that everywhere, but can't we just all treat each other like professionals??
I also am wondering when my coworkers will start to trust my knowledge...it seems like it still frequently happens that a coworker will help me turn a pt or something, and feel like they have to make a comment like "with all this weeping edema you need to be sure to put chux under the pt's arms" (when chux are already under their arms...) "oh be sure to do oral care on that orally intubated pt"...I am trying hard to just say "ok" instead of "I know that!!!" I know I still have a lot to learn but I'm not brand new!
When I was in school I was in the top of my class, did leadership stuff, etc. And it has been the same in previous jobs I've had... I am typically good at what I do and have been a well-trusted employee. I know it will take time, but dang...
I would have posted this in first year as a nurse but I wanted to get perspectives from nurses with more experience too. Any wisdom would be appreciated...how long did it take for your coworkers to stop treating you like the new guy? Do I have to look forward to May/June when we hire another crop of new grads?