I've lost. They are terminating me. I reported abuse to state. Now I'm terminated. Trying to go on with my life. Got a phone call from a coworker little while ago. She dumped with me way serious other abuse going on in the facility. She said that she, too, reported it to the same supervisor. Nothing. Now...here I am, jobless. I'm trying to move on...I cut her off and made an excuse that I had to go. She said that she didn't trust anyone and that she admired me for what I did. I guess that is why she felt she could tell me. But now...I just hate nursing. If I call state again, they won't believe me. My investigation is still underway. If I turn my head, I'm no better than that supervisor. I hate nursing. How did I get here?
If I could just take care of my patients, smile, heal their wounds, talk to them, educate them, share stories and provide that level of care that I want to.....
But no...
This is what nursing really is.
And I hate it. I hate being put in this situation.