I know pretty much 99.9% of nurses feel the way I do right now when they first graduate...
Overwhelmed, stressed, discouraged, surprised by the sudden change of roles from student to grad nurse. Wondering, did the university made a mistake in passing me. lol Maybe I should give my degree back? I'm asking too many questions while at work - I should know how all this works by now.
Some staff are supportive, some not so much. I did my preceptorship on a cardiac unit (where I've always wanted to be) and have been lucky enough to get a job there. Full time pretty much right off the bat - which I was told could be overwhelming and it certainly is. Nothing I can't handle but some days I just go home very down on myself, wondering if I made the wrong choice to be a nurse.
It does get better right? I hear the first year is the hardest. It's so hard to come home and not worry about "oh crap, I hope I mentioned this in report" or "should I have started that pre-op checklist already?" or "was that strip really such-and-such?"