New Grad RN Angst - page 2

Today is my day off after working three days in a row. However, my eyes popped open at 0530 and would not close again. My brain immediately went into review mode. Shoot! I forgot to give that... Read More

  1. by   RiRi03
    Thank you for sharing this!
  2. by   TXmomcat
    I am in a very similar situation. I had another career for 20 years before switching to nursing. In my other life, I felt competent, even something of an expert. Now, gone. This post and the comments sum up my feelings completely. There are days when I kind of feel like I am getting it together, and then days where I'm there until 9pm trying to finish charting and getting attitude from the night shift because I couldn't get to something. My problem though is I think I spend too much time with my patients. My patients love me, at least that's what my director says, but I never get out on time. Looking forward to the day when I truly have it together.
  3. by   FLfemale
    Why did you leave your former career? Bored? Fired? Pursueing a passion? I've always admired the competence & dedication of hard working nurses but never wanted to be one myself. I love being a RDH because of the normal work days & hrs AND I feel very competent with my skills. My patients love me due to my gentle but very thorough cleanings. But, I lost 1 of my jobs which leaves me working only 1 day a week. I can't afford to live on that & I'm too young to retire (53). This has lead to me think I should go for RN although the thought of working in a hospital terrifies me. All I read about is the chronic overload of work, understaffing & other issues......enough stress to cause RNs try cry in dispair & regret ever becoming one. YIKES! What about working in a small private office, clinic, surgery center, etc? Is the stress level more managable? But is it hard to get in a place like that? Please give me some insight.
  4. by   iluvivt
    I know it is difficult,not only have I been through it, I continue to witness it. I would try to STOP worrying so much as that will get you nowhere and drain your energy. Everytime you start to ruminate or worry about something literally do some thought stopping in your mind. Replace it with what i could have done differently?....what did I need to look up or or study?.....Can I fix my worksheet so I will be more organized? Then do it and let it go! You have what it takes to be a success and if you continue to learn and substitute education and learning and a plan instead or worring you will do just fine!
  5. by   SummitRN
    5 stepdown patients? Nights? What is the CNA to patient ratio?

    5 seems like a lot when I see most places around here 1:4 to 1:8 for floor patients and 1:3 to 1:4 for stepdown! (with 1:8-1:12 CNA)
  6. by   Angels91084
    I feel the same way!
  7. by   rnay312
    I felt exactly the same way six months into my career, and sometimes, to be honest, I still feel that way. I feel that way without the crying and the dread of feeling completely overwhelmed, but sometimes I still go home and wonder what more I could have done. Then I think, "You know what? I only peed once this shift and ate my lunch in 5 minutes. If that's not giving it my all, I don't know what is." Something that helped me realize how far I'd come: when the fresh new grads start rolling in. You've been a nurse six months... assuming you got a job fairly quickly after graduating, the graduates from December will starting working. There is a satisfaction when you're able to answer their questions, after all, you have six months more experience than they have! You will see how they may depend on your expertise and it makes you feel like you actually know something.

    It sounds like you're doing a great job. Never stop asking questions or wondering if you can be better. I think that's what makes you a fantastic nurse - you will always strive for excellence. Your patients are very lucky.
  8. by   RawsiWilliams
    Always remember: Every nurse was once a new graduate, and every preceptor was once a novice. One does not acquire greatness in nursing care of patients through osmosis of years only; if that was the case, EVERY nurse would eventually become a great nurse. Rather, one who brings the necessary characteristic of caring of people is ALREADY great; nursing is just the practice through which that characteristic is fully deployed. Your underlying reasons for your angst demonstrate that you care about your patients; thus, you are already great. Be patient, your nursing practice will catch up to you. (From a RN over 15 years)
    Last edit by RawsiWilliams on Jan 19, '13 : Reason: entire article displayed in my reply
  9. by   erin7rae
    OMG Thank you so much for writing this article. I graduated nursing school in October, passed my NCLEX in December and am starting in a New Grad RN program in the ED in March. It's been a whirlwind of events and I'm still trying to grasp that I am a licensed nurse with a job! I was expecting to be searching for a job for months and months. I basically got lucky with the timing. Applied online, and then saw them at a career fair where I was able to give them my resume and ask them to look for my application. I got a call a week later to come in for an interview. Anyways, since I passed the NCLEX, went through the interview process, and was offered this job- I've been FREAKING OUT. Everything you talked about in your article I've been worrying about. But I haven't even started the job! One of my professors once talked about a syndrome New Grad's have: "Imposter Syndrome" We feel like we don't belong and are posing for something that we're not. I definitely feel like that. I worked as a server through nursing school and I sometimes had "serving nightmares" where I would wake up and wonder if I forgot to bring one of my tables a refill or if I forgot to put in an order. Those nightmares are the worst and it's only food service!! I can only imagine how they'll play out when work starts. I so appreciate you're transparent honesty, it gives me courage to go into this New Grad Program not afraid to ask all the questions I need to ask to be confident in my abilities. You sound like an awesome nurse btw!!! Thank you so much!!!
  10. by   KPHIL71
    If your going to survive in this profession make sure you learn how to prioritize. Do the best you can to keep your pt's safe. Use your nursing judgement and always be slightly paranoid.

  11. by   naptimeRN
    I could have written this myself! I feel EXACTLY the same way! The anxiety is killer and I truly feel I am by biggest critic and ultimately my biggest enemy. I am glad I am not alone with these feelings. I have terrible post-shift anxiety ("omg, did I chart that?" "should I have done this?" "Did I give that med" etc) It drives me crazy...or should I say, I drive me crazy!?

    I hope the anxieties go away somewhat, because I feel that they are so prominent in my head that I am unable to think properly. And of course being in the right mind-set is necessary for our jobs so we can properly care for our patients!

    As bad as I feel for you after reading this, this really did make me feel better and I hope you feel better too knowing from all these responses that you are not alone! All the best
  12. by   danigold
    WOW! Thanks to everyone for taking the time to comment! Just reading them has made me feel so much better. It really does help to know that my feelings are not that unusual in the grand scheme of things!
  13. by   Jarreux
    Quote from danigold
    WOW! Thanks to everyone for taking the time to comment! Just reading them has made me feel so much better. It really does help to know that my feelings are not that unusual in the grand scheme of things!
    You definitely strike a chord in me and, I imagine, in most new nurses. My program was unique in that we had a clinical coach that we would work full shifts with all year. I was taking on full care of only 3 of her 4 patients on a step down cardiac unit and became really overwhelmed. I straight up told her, "maybe I'm just not cut out for this". She responded by saying, "no one really is. The demands are unreasonable for any one person, and even after 28 years I still struggle at times to keep up with everything." The takeaways were that we can only do our best, reach out for help when we need it, and that YES this is an incredibly difficult but rewarding job!