i have just started my new RN position and i am officially off orientation this week - and basically i feel like i am drowning. most of what i think i need to vent about has been said by many of you in multiple threads but i think i will just recap my top concerns and frustrations:
1.) my delegating skills basically suck. when i ask the techs to do stuff i am always very polite and eventually it gets done but i get so frustrated when they give me grief for asking them to do their job. unfortunately, i am the type of person that takes it personally and i feel bad for the rest of day even asking them to help a patient to the bathroom.
2.) even though there are tons of really nice nurses around, i tend to have the tendency of gravitating towards and asking questions of the one or two nurses working that either a.) know about as much as i do or b.) aren't generally very pleasant or willing to help - it just makes the transition more difficult.
3.) i moved 2000 miles away from where i went to school, and the most difficult thing is that i don't really know anyone at my new hospital. i come home and vent to my husband but i think you can't really understand what a new grad RN is going through unless you've been there. and i feel that work is all that i talk about - it seems to encompass my whole life and i really hate that.
4.) the actual work isn't that difficult but it is the possibilities that make me the most overwhelmed. the possibility that something will go wrong, that a patient will code, that a doctor will yell at me, that a patient will go AWOL (oh wait that's not a possibility it really happened on my first day off orientation). i know that you can't work yourself up over things that haven't happened yet but for some reason i can't stop.
i realize this thread is basically venting but i do feel a little better just putting my feelings in writing.
is anyone else feeling similarly? if not, could someone just lie to me so i don't feel like such a loser! :)
