I wanted ask a question please.
I started to work in dialysis unit in my country.I thought it will be interesting and I was very excited with new work .I am a male R.N with dialysis course.
I warked 11 years in trauma unit.
I left there; the staff there loved me very much; most of them cried and we had a great connection. and it was very hard to me to leave.
And this week I started a new work. I can say I am suffering !! not less than that. I am waiting whole shift when it will be over.
first of all I am a lone male RN there;and I noticed it bothers me. The other nurses in this unit check me as I am the new one and I can understand that.But they are not interested with the new guy; not so kind to me and I feel very strange there. as I am not belongin to there.(which is partially truth
I am nice person ( as others say); but a little bit a complicated one. I have issues with getting use to new places and acceptance; if the staff not accept me I blame myself ; feel rejected anf all I want is flee from there. my good traits are not expressed and people think maybe I am arrogant or just not fit in.
I am very depressed as I left my workplace and I moved to dialysis unit. also don't like the thing that I am always around the staff; no privacy at all ( there I had my recharging time); and don't have free space for working and etc; always around staff and people ;it is draining me emotionally and I am tired although I did not work hard there.These things were available to me in my ex unit .I am defintely introverted person.
can somene advice me what to do?
I am ashamed to fly from there there now; afraid what the administration will think about a worker who can't even one week struggle and stay in his work place; otherwise I am ready to go away from there in this moment !!
thank you; my dear dialysis friends;I love very much this field; very interesting and beautifull speciality;but I don't know if I can work there.
sorry for the language mistakes .its not my native language.