Hi everyone. I have been an ICU nurse for a year and a half now. Prior to that I have 2 years med/surg experience. I am questioning whether I should stay in ICU or hang up my hat and find another area of nursing.
I had a patient code last week. The patient's prognosis was very poor (severe anoxic brain injury s/p cardiac arrest). The patient started going bad and I anticipated that we would have to code her, and of course I did everything I could to try and keep her stable, but the inevitable happened and I had to call a code.
I froze for a second when the RT asked me to help bag. (Hadn't done that before, but big deal, right?) I felt overwhelmed. This was only my second patient to code, but I try to help out when I can with others. I just can't seem to find my place and I feel totally inadequate.
Why do I still feel so nervous and anxious after being in ICU for more than a year? What is wrong with me? Shouldn't I have a little more confidence by now? I'm afraid that I am letting my coworkers down. What would you do?