I'm a new nurse in a very busy Level I ICU.
I have noticed especially since I came off of orientation and am on my own, that I come home completely drained emotionally/mentally even after just one shift. I feel so completely useless my first day off, and frankly I don't want to be around anyone but my husband and sometimes I would rather him not even be home.
I've always been an introvert, but I feel like this job is making me more of an introvert on my days off.
I'm turning down social events left and right on my off days because I know I need a day or two to recover by myself. I feel like when I get off of work I have nothing left to give anyone after being pulled in 399 different directions all day and someone always being in my face needing something.
I'm thankful my husband is low maintenance, but I would eventually like to have a family and I cannot even fathom the idea of coming home to needy children with the way I feel after work.
Is this just part of being a new nurse? Or do most nurses feel this way after working? Or maybe I need to find a new, less intense specialty in the long run.
I just don't want to give everything to my job and give my family the "leftovers."