so I've been an RN now for a year now...and I'm goin to work in 1.5 hrs for another night shift, and I have not slept because I am just anxious and hating my job..i just started this med/surg job 6 mos ago, and the past 3 nights they put me on charge duty with new grads, and though I got through those nights I am dreading that tonight is going to be another one of those nights...I seriously feel that I am not ready to be in charge as I am still learning and just pairing me up with another newbie adds insult to injury..i wanna scream out loud, "what's my nurse manager thinking?" and no my head will not get big with the "they put you on charge because you know your stuff" compliments because I know where I am and I am not where they think I am...
I want to say something about this but I am also afraid that I will be criticized by my nurse manager or my coworkers that I am being a baby and that I need to pull up my nurse panties some more...but I've been staying up 24hrs or more on my day offs just being anxious and dreading to go to work...this feels even worse than when I worked in a nursing home...
I love being a nurse and I don't mind doing bedside nursing...but i hate livin a life full of fear and no sleep...
so I've been an RN now for a year now...and I'm goin to work in 1.5 hrs for another night shift, and I have not slept because I am just anxious and hating my job..i just started this med/surg job 6 mos ago, and the past 3 nights they put me on charge duty with new grads, and though I got through those nights I am dreading that tonight is going to be another one of those nights...I seriously feel that I am not ready to be in charge as I am still learning and just pairing me up with another newbie adds insult to injury..i wanna scream out loud, "what's my nurse manager thinking?" and no my head will not get big with the "they put you on charge because you know your stuff" compliments because I know where I am and I am not where they think I am...
I want to say something about this but I am also afraid that I will be criticized by my nurse manager or my coworkers that I am being a baby and that I need to pull up my nurse panties some more...but I've been staying up 24hrs or more on my day offs just being anxious and dreading to go to work...this feels even worse than when I worked in a nursing home...
I love being a nurse and I don't mind doing bedside nursing...but i hate livin a life full of fear and no sleep...