So I graduated nursing school in May 2015. Just reached my one year mark as a new nurse in a coronary care ICU. I still have so many days where I feel like things just don't "click," or that I don't act on behalf of my patient like I should, and I only realize it after a seasoned nurse points it out. I have always been an overachiever and I am always extremely tough on myself.
Example, just today I received a patient from the ED, type 1 diabetic that came in for low BS (38 at home, came in to the ER via EMS). Received a few amps of D50 in the ED. Patient wears an insulin pump and as of late had been having issues with it. The orders in moving to the unit were: D5 drip @75, BG checks q1h and sliding scale insulin (SSI) to cover with each BG check. The patient removed the insulin pump while in the ED. When he got to me his BG was 231, so I gave 4 units per the SSI order. The Dr came up to the floor, and I pointed out that his BG was 231 (highest since he had been in the hospital) and he said oh wow hes really going up....let me change his fluid order to plain normal saline and lets see how he does. I made it a point to mention the hourly checks and SSI, and that because he was awake and conscious we could have him eat to regulate his BG. The physician changed the fluid order, kept the SSI orders and left. I rechecked his BG an hour later and it was 197. Per the SSI order I was then to give him 2 units. An hour after that it was 154. So then he only needed 2 more units. So he got a total of 8 units regular insulin across 3 hours. To me it was a weird order and setup from the start...but I sought clarification with the MD and discussed it with a more seasoned nurse. So the next recheck (after covering for 154) his BG was 63! But he was awake, alert/oriented, and was able to drink 4 oz of juice for me. Rechecked after 15 mins...BG 47! This was right at shift change (of course)..but anyways with the BG 47 I gave him more juice, some crackers, and an amp of D50..still alert/oriented, etc. But as I was reporting off the day nurse, who is very seasoned, looked at me when I told her the orders and huffed and said thats stupid, I wouldnt have done that, and she had a new grad nurse with her who also said no nope wouldnt have done that, so stupid..something to that effect. I told the seasoned nurse that I sat there with the doctor and clarified and that I couldn't just refuse to do it. Afterall, I anticipated the 2 units for his BG of 154 would bring it down to a normal range. And plus I could easily fix a semi-low BG with D5 or food! I didn't anticipate it dropping that much ...but it was just really frustrating and of course the whole 45 min drive home I was beating myself up thinking why didn't I insist to the doctor to do something different!?!
Will this get better with more experience?? I just feel like I'm such a bad nurse and failure during times like this!