is this worth it?

I have 2 years of experience as an RN and most of it was in the OR. I loved it, yet hated it. It never felt right to me and I always struggled to "fit in" and I was even bullied for my religious views (the became the last straw). So I took a job with HHC in Denver. I think this is it, I have found my passion in nursing!!

I am not going to lie though, it is hard. Somedays I stay up until 1 AM. Somedays I dont eat. Somedays just suck with the traffic and driving and the constant emails and phone calls. But I put so much into this. I am constantly meeting up with an experienced RN to try to get as much training with wounds as I can. I am always watching videos. Always asking questions. And somehow, even though I feel like I have so much to learn, I am still able to go into the home with confidence.

but anyways, I took a job with a company, and then shortly after, another HHC called me for an interview. I have been in HHC for 3 months now. When I went to the second job's interview, the woman immediatley threw an offer with me. I was kind of shocked. She was well aware of how little of experience I have. I was never asked legit interview type questions either. Here was her offer:

I am on call for 3 weeks out of the month from 330-8pm and weekends. I get salary 2k a month. Her exact words were: you will only do SOC or emergency visits. She said that it was up to me to decide if I wanted to keep that patient and continue seeing them. If I did then I would get extra per visit. That was really it and I had a hard to turning I down because of my student loans. She also reported they might get 2 "calls" a week

So I accepted. My other HHC is huge. It is super nice because I have a ton of patients in my area. This HHC is very small though and a lot of the calls have been for patients 30 minutes or more away! I sometimes find myself getting pissed off for having to drive soo far, that's a lot of time. I am not even bothered about my car or gas, it's more about my time spent driving and then the time to do the SOC.

I also feel like I have some resentment towards the agency. The first week I did not get any calls. The second week they called me for a wound vac and abx. I told them I would do the SOC. Then the scheduler asked if I could also take the patient on as a patient. I told her no (drive was 30 minutes). Then about 10 minutes later I get a call from the boss and she demands that I take it. She says, "you need to take this patient". I never got paid any extra. Then she also said that I can see the patient during my on call hours. Is this how on call works? Obviously this was not part of the agreement though and I let her know that.

I wasn't happy and they knew this. I voiced my frustration. I did end up taking the patient but I think it was only because it would give me more experience and I could learn their charting system.

I am still confused sometimes on what call means. II only thought that if a patient was leaving the hospital after 330, then I would get a call. To me, it seems if they can't find an RN, then I am called.

I was also told that I needed to go and open a patient that was strictly PT. When I reviewed her chart, she has zero nursing needs. This does not seem right? The order is really strange. On the order it says RN for SOC and then PT to follow. But the office told that it's that way because PT can't go out until Wednesday. I just get confused, why is nursing going? why not delay SOC until PT? I am wasting my time I feel like

Also, they will tell me a patient is to be d/c, (lets just say tonight at 7) then patient is not d/c until the next day, in the AM. They still expect me to open the case even though there will be another nurse following and the patient is clearly not being d/c during my call hours.

Please help clarify some of this. I have never taken call in HHC. Maybe this is the expectation anywhere. But I have become salty and it makes me not want to work for them anymore. I really love the other company. Maybe I just need to forget about this place.