THIS IS THE MOMENT

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I promised to myself that im gonna tell my story once i get my official r.n result.

First time i took my nclex in uk 2006 failed. I used kaplan and saunders to study but i know i wasnt doing very well with my study coz i was working as a full time nurse at the same time. 2008 we moved to new york and tried the second time around and failed again. Used kaplan , saunders and feuer self study only. 2010 took nclex the third time this time i have a feeling that im gonna pass coz ive been reading and studying and listening to audio lectures to the max. I did pearson vue trick the first time and went to cc page so i know i failed again miserably.i got the result via snail mail coz im with california bon and true enough i failed again. Result was two above average and the rest nearly passing. I cried like a river and buckets of tears everyday..it took me a while to recover. I wasnt working only husband is supporting me and my two kids. Then i got pregnant with the third child. I gave birth 2009. I gathered all my strenght again and this time its more difficult to study with three kids around you. If i have time im studying , if the kids are sleeping at night time thats the only time i can study. Im not doing very well with my study i know that. I got a part time job so i set aside my review and concentrate in my work.

2011 i decided to enroll in kaplan for 3 months based upon the comments i read in this forum. I quit my job. Asked my mom to come over to help me with my kids.i attended the live lectures. Did all the q banks and the predictor test studied religiously everyday im in the library answering q and a 100-150 questions a day and if im tired of doing it i am reading the books saunders, kaplan, prioritization and delegation and exam cram. I read them all twice and some of them thrice. At the end of the day when i am mentally and physically drained i will lie down and put on the headset listening to audio lectures of kaplan and feuer. I really really pushed myself to the limit , i never studied this way in my entire student life. You can say because of the pressure, embarassment, low slf esteem and humiliation thats why i studied like that. I know i wanted this all my life and theres no other way that i see myself than being a us r.n. Did i mention when my brain is telling me to stop or shutting down i always play the song "this is the moment" my favorite lines in the song is this is the moment my final test destiny beckoned i never reckoned second best. I wont look down, i must not fall,this is the moment , the sweetest moment.damn all the odds i will sit forever with the gods!! I will closed my eyes while listening to it and imagining myself passing the nclex exam!!

On the morning of jan 31st while having breakfast i listened to few songs to help me calm down and relax i played the songs, god will make a way, give thanks and lead me lord. I was so happy and calmed and relaxed while listening to it. 10:00am husband accompanied me to the testing center but i told him that we should drop by at padre pio's church in manhattan, ny to complete my last novena to him. At 11:30 im inside the examination center and fast forward ive got a lot of sata, drag and drop and tons of med surgs and unfamiliar meds. I never lose my composure if i didnt know the answer i will just shut my eyes and breathe in and out to put tons of oxygen to my brain and when im done i remember and recalled the questions, i know im getting it right coz one after another sata again so i know im still in the game and makes me soo happy everytime i see sata. At 76 computer ask me if i wanted to have a break. I did had a cookies and water came back after i went to the bathroom. I said another prayer again and asked lord to lead me and i will follow him. After 2 more questions computer shut down and my jaw dropped!! Felt shocked although i know that i will never reached 100 questions based on my review and answering q and a. I know i passed so confident that i passed.

After i left the center went straight home and after an hour did the pvt and said cannot register contact your board of nursing. That was the time i weeped and cried and cannot help myself to get so emotional..

After 4th tried i passed!! Cannot believed it! But i praised god and to all my family members who prayed for me. Just this afternoon ive got the letter from california bon saying i passed!! To all nclex takers my advice is study really really well and pray, pray, pray. Ask it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knocked and it will be opened to you.behold i knock, i seek and ask for the grace of my us r.n license. To god be the glory!

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:nurse:Congratulations, your story gives many of us hope :)

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:yelclap: CONGRATULATIONS!! :yelclap:

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Congratulations.:)

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Thanks guys.

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Congradulations!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Congrats! so inspirational your story help me to push a little harder thanks and again congrats!!!!

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Never give up on your dreams. Just like paulo coelho said in his book "the alchemist" when you want something with all your heart, the universe will conspire and will help you to achieve it!! Its so true indeed!! Dreams do really do come true!!Sometimes you feel like giving up, losing hope and having a change of heart and mind towards your career just like me. you just need to contemplate, think and refocus once again to get back on track. Ask the Lord to lead you and He will make a way when theres seems to be no way!! with out him we are nothing. I will forever praise him for the ultimate blessing he has bestowed upon me.

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