Terrified of starting my nursing program

[Elysha10]

Hello everyone. This is my first post but I have been reading a lot of different discussions on here. I know this has been put out there once or twice before but I figured since I'm feeling this way it's easiest to write it. *its a bit long and also reposted as it wasn't in a good forum and didn't know how to change it-sorry*

So I decided last year that I was going to get my pre req's up to apply for the RPN program, I had went this path before but didn't try, I was young and not ready to give it my all. A couple years ago I got sad around September when everyone started school and it started to happen last summer as well so I looked at some options for myself. Fanshawe offered general arts and science online this year so I decided to jump on the chance because I couldn't continue to wonder what if. I had an amazing semester and applied to the RPN program at both Fanshawe campus and was accepted. I was and still am excited about what I have accomplished this far. The problem I seem to be facing now is im struggeling a bit with some content I'm learning and I'm starting to second guess myself. I'm worried I won't be able to absorb the intense amount in nursing if im struggling with some content from an easier program, I'm also terrified I won't cut it. I'm shy and hate feeling stupid in front of people. I was the kid that never answered questions in class for the fear I was wrong even if I knew I was 100% correct, my heart starts racing and I feel like everyone is looking at me like I'm an idiot I know stimulation labs and clinics are to help you practice and that everyone makes mistakes but I'm just so terrified. I do want this but I just don't know if I can do it and if I should fork out all this money to fail. My husband is super supportive but it's hard to explain to him sometimes. I also don't have the best track record with school and I don't want to disapoint everyone because they are all so proud. I see how helpful everyone is on here so I thought I would give this a shot.

Sorry it's so long

[Wiggly Litchi]

Don't be sorry - Thanks for posting!

I have troubles like this sometimes; I'm scared to death of the nursing program and sometimes I get like the whole anxiety chest tightness just thinking about it. I was a nervous wreck when I was working toward my CNA certification; I was at a dark place in life and I didn't have any confidence. I realized that my biggest obstacle in life wasn't my anxiety, it was me.

I still constantly have to remind myself that I can do this - I have a 4.0 and I'll be applying to the nursing program in May so I can hopefully start in the spring - I have to remind myself that I'm not stupid and worthless. I learned quickly as a CNA that people smell fear (staff and patients alike); fake your confidence til you make it, but ultimately it's like jumping in a tub of ice water~ The initial shock will kinda suck, it might even hurt a bit but you're still going to be alright at the end and maybe even a bit stronger for it.

[Elysha10]

Thank you for responding that's really helpful

[Simplistic]

My best advice is to stop listening to people, and stop reading posts on this website that claim "nursing school is the hardest thing in the world". It is NOT that bad. Prioritization and time management are key. Believe in YOURSELF.