State of discouragement, just feel like venting!

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This semester has been hell for me. I can honestly say I have failed this semester, well at least that's what I feel like despite the semester isn't over yet. I have felt down this whole entire semester. I have been at nursing school since Fall of 2009, now that I am finally in my 2nd semester of nursing school I feel like all that I have accomplished to get to this point is gone down the drain. To top it off I have a family that is depending on me to succeed in Nursing school to pass nursing school to make our life better. How could I come to the realization that I let my family down.....sorry everyone I just had to vent, feel like I cried all I can cried this was my dream for the longest and my heart desire....pray for me if you know the word of prayer because I wouldn't know how to cope or what to do next if I failed Nursing School :cry:

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I can honestly say that I know 1000000000%+ infinity&beyond what you're feeling right now.

This is going to be long...but this is my story...LOL...

My dad's side of the family, when it comes to the females, all of my cousins have either: dropped out of high school, graduated and then got married, or got knocked up. Not that there's anything wrong with that, I understand people have different...thoughts (lol) after high school.

I have two older brothers (I'm the baby) and they decided not to continue onto higher education. I decided to go onto college.

My initial goal was to get my Ph.D in Clinical Psychology and become a Psychologist. After being at UCLA (I was a Pre-Med/Psychobiology major) for about a year and a half, I couldn't do it. I worked in one of the Graduate Admissions programs (for UCLA's Med School) and I know how crazy it is, I also did some research in a couple of labs...and that was too crazy too.

I kept going to UCLA because I had my job, but financial aid acted up and suddenly, I didn't have my work-study job, they had to let me go.

So now...I've had to move back home with my parents (have been here since June), can't get a job anywhere and it is so frustrating and depressing at the same time.

I don't have anything against taking classes at my community college--heck, I get my tuition paid, I only pay for books (and gas, lol) but it's so frustrating that some days I just don't do anything.

I decided to become a nurse because I'm dead set on being able to help people, and reading more about the experiences a lot of our members here on AN have...it's just amazing to me! I can't wait until I'm finally in NS, LOL!

But I can't imagine how I would be feeling like this in actual NS school...that sounds too intense.

I guess the difference between you and I is that I've been diagnosed with depression...and it explains why sometimes I get into this "funk" where I'm not motivated to do anything, can sleep for hours, not eat for days....and it's a challenge, let me tell you!

My parents, and my mum especially supports me in everything and anything that I decide to do...but my parents are so stressed out right now with this financial situation, it makes me feel so useless a lot of the times....and yet there's not much I can do about it. All I can do about it is study REALLY hard to get into this darn nursing program at my college which now only has once a year application submission...

Whew! This has gotten super long....but honestly, I just want you to know that you are not alone, and you will be in my prayers. It's actually kinda relieving to see someone in the same situation as myself....(as bad as that sounds, I KNOW!)

Keep your chin up! Everything happens for a reason and if you need someone...feel free to PM me! We can give each other motivation!!!!!

-SakuraChan.

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This semester has been hell for me. I can honestly say I have failed this semester, well at least that's what I feel like despite the semester isn't over yet. I have felt down this whole entire semester. I have been at nursing school since Fall of 2009, now that I am finally in my 2nd semester of nursing school I feel like all that I have accomplished to get to this point is gone down the drain. To top it off I have a family that is depending on me to succeed in Nursing school to pass nursing school to make our life better. How could I come to the realization that I let my family down.....sorry everyone I just had to vent, feel like I cried all I can cried this was my dream for the longest and my heart desire....pray for me if you know the word of prayer because I wouldn't know how to cope or what to do next if I failed Nursing School :cry:
Why do you think you failed the semester? Have you discussed this with your professors? Is there anything you can do to make the situation better?
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@SakuraChan thanks for telling your story, I see that I'm not the only one that is going through stuff. But we will make it just keep holding on and succeeding. Take care!!

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@Lolita34 I just feel like this semester was no where compared to my summer classes in Fundamental 1 I got an A...in Fundamentals ll I got a B...now that I'm in MedSurg I am doing horrible...I hope I don't have to resort to changing my major to Biology and pursue Nursing afterwards...I pray I don't have to go that route...but I doubt if there is something I can do the semester is about over :(

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I can empathize 100%! I am about two weeks away from finishing my first semester. I was a complete straight A student doing all my pre-reqs...I even finished A/P with a 100% average. Then came the nursing program! :( Our scores have to be a 77 or above to pass. Despite countless hours of studying, reading, practicing the NCLEX style questions on ATI each test would come...and I would end up with a 78. This past week we had a test on acid base and electrolytes which I failed. I literally studied for three weeks. So now I am right at the edge. I am one point away from failing. We have a test on periop, and our cumlative final which accounts for 25% of our overall grade. Nothing like more pressure. It makes me feel stupid to be quite honest. I am stuck in an unhappy relationship right now with two little girls and no way to support them unless I get through school. If I fail out I will be stuck here for even longer. Sorry this is long but just know that you aren't alone in your feelings and concerns.

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@Llawver I understand truly and no your post is just right we are indeed in the same boat, I only have 1 class left next week and we take finals which is 15% of our class and its cumulative. I was told by instructor I need to make a B in order to pass, and we have to take Pharmacology ATI next week as well...I'm just praying, hoping and believe I do my best and give my all...and last but definitely not least is to pass everything so that I can move ahead. I wish you all the best it's not over yet, you can do it. Just keep your head high and fight hard as possible and study your butt off. That is just how I'm going to spend this weekend hopefully because time is winding down. GoodLuck!!

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I am about in the same boat as you. Straight A student.....until now! My test average in theory is a 78 with two more tests to go one of which is a comprehensive final. I failed my electrolyte fluid test to and I studied for weeks. I have to get a 75 test average to pass the class or find another profession. I am ok with not getting an A for an overall grade. These classes are the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Ugh! Guess I should get off the message boards and start studying!

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At LemonAide yes these test ?s are not your average ?s you see on any other test. I have to make an 80 on my final this week or I will have to change professions as well, but that isn't an option. I just took a break from studying my brain is on overload from study and did I mention its cumulative :( I just pray we do well so that we can become awesome nurses. I only 1 year left I just hope I make it..Goodluck with your finals!

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God is so Good!I passed all my classes this semester including 3 nursing classes. I also pass my ATI with yet another level 3! Now I have to get ready for next semester I have 2 ATI's ahead of me including OB and MedSurg as well as Nursing research! I pray to God I do well next semester!!Wish me luck in Advance. I hope everyone did exceptionally well this semester and for the semesters to come!!

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Well, after reading this thread, I thought I needed to say something. I just got my exam grade for GI/GU and failed. This is how my semester went (I'll post my grades since no-one knows me :) )...first exam--84 second exam--78 third exam--82 fourth exam--98 and my final--77. The real kick in the teeth was on the 3rd exam I didn't turn the paper over and missed 4 questions on the back! That was 8 points there!!! The tests are weighted 18% and the final 28%...that leaves me with a final grade of 83.12%. I just feel sick to my stomach. How do you go from a 98 to a 77? I studied the same way (recorded the lecture, blah, blah). I just wish I could REALLY figure out what I'm doing wrong. You can't be below an 80% or you fail. I have gotten B's in my previous semesters, but I just couldn't figure out what the teacher was going to ask this time. I have 1 more year to go and am always worried that I can make it each semester.

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Awww... Don't give up!

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