Something is wrong with me. Guess I shouldn't be a nurse

[ijuanabhappy]

After a few failed attempts over the last year at finding a nursing job I am suited for, this relatively new nurse is at a loss. I think there must be something wrong with my brain. I am disorganized, horrible at time management, cannot do several things at once, I move slower than most. This is all when I am learning a hundred new things at once mind you. I have anxiety and have noticed that in nursing jobs, there is not as much time allowed for learning compared to my previous occupations prior to nursing school. (which I always excelled at) I guess I'm so detail oriented that it becomes counter productive. When learning things that are new, I tend to focus intensely on one thing at a time and all of the other information or things I am supposed to be doing at the same time are out the window! I also have to do things over and over repetitiously before I can pick up speed at it; not just a few times of watching someone else and then doing it once or twice. I know I have some OCD, but now I'm wondering if I have ADD because I cannot focus on all of these things and feel completely overwhelmed and paralyzed with fear because of my disorganization. Ugh.

It's too bad because I am super compassionate and very perceptive to the feelings and emotions of others. I love talking to people and helping them solve their problems. I feel that I have a way of calming people down and relating well to people with "issues". Maybe I should have gone into social work. Or maybe I should have listened to that personality profile test and become a shrink!

[strawberryfields]

I saw this quote the other day, it may be of some help to you:

Everything is energy and that's all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get the reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics. -Albert Einstein