SOBER 1 YEAR

[newmommy26]

Well I cannot believe it has been a year and some change now. I have been thinking about this site and how many people helped me through the first couple months. Fast forward a year.I am now working in health care, not as a nurse, but as a customer service representive in a DME company. I am healthy and happy on most days. My job makes me miss nursing everyday because I know I can do more. But then I have to sit back and be thankful for what i have. I guess the biggest task is to keep my head down and my sobriety first. I have gotten so wrapped up in putting in as many hours as I can to "look good" to my bosses and you know what I find myself in the same mindset I had when I started spiraling down in nursing. Taking stuff home with me, worrying about what others thought about me, wondering if they only knew. In fact they actually do know and I get the looks from time to time. I wonder if this is exactly what I need to toughen me up for when I one day get my license back. I know I am venting now so I will stop that. I guess I wanted to say thank you to everyone who gave me advice during those first few months. I am still in PNAP, and am exactly 1 year away from going to Harrisburg to petition the board for my license back. But one day at a time is all I can do for today. That and start studying for the boards again. Does anyone know if the license has lapsed for over 7years do i have to go back to school or just take the boards again? Thanks you all. Just for today I am sober...it has been working for 1 year and 16 days.

[sissiesmama, ASN, RN]

Congratulations on making it through that first year!

Anne, RNC