So Depressed

[Helper4Life_RN]

:angryfire:o:sniff:as i sit here i keep asking myself why......i took my nclex exam thursday from that point on i have been depressed, can't sleep, can't eat, can't enjoy life small things all because of the dreaded feeling of failing the exam and not wanting to go through this torture again if i did fail. i knew that i could view my results today and that in itself was scary but i realized at 3am this morning after trying to log on to the boards site to check my results that once again my life will feel as if a dark cloud is covering me. i have for 9 hours attempted to log on to my board of nursing. i have yet been able to check my results. each time i check my heart skips a beat because on one hand i want the site to work so i can find out and on the other hand i'm scare to death to see the results. why i keep saying am i being tortured like this. just last week my friend took her's thursday and she was able to get online that saturday and see her results but for me it isn't as simple. i just needed to talk about this since i really can't explain how i feel to any of my friends and family not even to the ones that have already passed the test. i feel alone right now with this sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach. please keep me in your prayers:(

[clairebearrn]

Good luck....positive thoughts, okay??? You made it this far, dont give up...keep us posted...!:)

[vanurse08]

Helper4Life,

I am feeling the same exact way you are. I took my test 8 am on Thursday also and I have yet to get any news. Its a feeling that only us nursing students understand. Hasn't that been the theme since we've begin nursing school??? The crazy grading scale, the exit exams and now this!!!

So we've just got to hang in there (easier say than done, I KNOW). If we made it through nursing school, we can make it through this.

You are in my prayers :)

[iheartnurses]

i am doing the exact same thing... so scared to death. i ended up with 265 and when my fellow nursing friends hear that number.. there's a pause and i just know it's not a good sign... i know people have passed with 265, but i just have a bad feeling that i didn't- just due to the fact that i was not in my best mental-focused state that day and i know i could have done better and be more calmer instead of rushing through the questions. i am crossing my fingers, i might find out tom. what my results are but 'til then i am all over the internet and bon sites... i know that if i failed which is inevitable-- i will need all the strength and will power to to tackle it again and of coorifice i need to get over what other people will think esp. at work and people who have such high expectations of me. i am sure i have let them down. oh how i wish i was better at testing... i just pray to God that i pass and if not i pray that he will give me the courage to accept my failure.

[Helper4Life_RN]

thanks everyone for all your prayers and well wishes......i have been praying so much i thank god was really starting to feel pity for me....i took my test in delaware because maryland didn't have anymore opening slots and because of this i didn't think i could use the quick result and if i could i would have to wait 2 business days to get results however just by mistake i decided to look up the phone number to the quick result and while doing this i logged on to the pearson site only to see the quick result link availble now let me tell you that was really bizarre since i have been looking at this all morning just hoping i could use that feature. i immediately called a friend and told her that i could get my results by paying but i was scared....to be told you failed is better if it's free.....she encouraged me to use the feature i did with prayer in my heart and found out........................that i indeed passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! people who never experienced this type of dred could not possible know how relieved i was and i wanted to be an inspiration to everyone who is still waiting and know that i will be praying very hard like i did for myself for you to come out of this on top. thanks everyone for your support during this stressful time........i just looked back and realized that to have failed would have been so hard to deal with by telling my friends and co workers who kept saying you will be fine your an lpn you can do this with your eyes closed....i would like to say to people who think this that nclex world does not care what your previous capabilities were......it has not bearing, it's a sucky test and it makes you feel like you know nothing. i want everyone who hasnt found out yet to keep pushing til the end, i know it's hard but pulling all of our prayers together is helpful.....thanks again for your support:yeah: