Hello, I'm a second degree student and I eventually want to be an FNP. I have been accepted into a pricey accelerated bsn program but having second thoughts. I already know that the academic side of it will be grueling, but what I am actually more concerned about are the labs and clinicals. I've always had a problem with my motor skills for as long as I can remember. I'm also very uncoordinated. I looked it up and I think I may have dyspraxia or something. I'm clumsy and very slow with any task that uses my body, like tying shoelaces or cutting a slice of cake without making a mess. Some tasks are flat-out impossible for me even you give me all day to do it. I also have a weak grasp and struggle with things like opening a bottle of wine with a wine-opener. I basically feel like a kid when it comes to these. (And many times, kids are better at it than I am!) I'm not sure if it has anything to do with the fact that I have very small hands. I just confirmed last week that they're smaller than the hands of my 10-year-old niece. Due to this, I always avoided jobs that required me to use my motor skills. I cannot imagine myself wrapping up sandwiches under a time constraint, let alone making them. My past jobs include typing in front of a desk in an office or tutoring kids. But I'm not going to be able to avoid a certain task just because I'm not comfortable with it once I'm in nursing school, right? I just had my TB test done a few weeks ago and as I saw the medical assistant effortlessly injecting the needle into my arm, I couldn't help but think to myself "How am I going to become a nurse or even a nurse practitioner, when I struggle with a simple task that even a medical assistant can do so easily?" I know they say that it takes practice, but I think this is just a completely different problem for me.
I also feel like I have poor judgment skills and lack common sense a lot of the times. I heard of a student that failed a clinical because the nurse told her to go get a syringe for insulin injection and she accidentally grabbed one for a regular subcutaneous injection. (I guess she didn't know the difference at that time) When she came back, the nurse looked at it, and failed her on the spot without a warning! Maybe the nurse just happened to be the wicked witch from the west, but anywho, that sounds like a VERY possible scenario to me...
Like I said, my goal is to work as an FNP at a primary care clinic where I see patients 1 on 1, so I probably wouldn't have to be as "quick" as staff RN in a hospital, but I don't know if I would be able to pass nursing school let alone work as an RN before becoming an NP. What should I do? Should I look into a different career?