Should I be worried or am I just paranoid

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Specializes in med/surg, step down, I have seen it all.

I have to admit this whole thing has thrown me for a loop as I am sure it has many of you. Yes I did the crime now I am doing the time. I have been clean for 3 years. I have been battling the board with my lawyer for three years. It came down to the best scenario for me as we thought it was others would disagree. But I am on probation for a year I have no stipulations against giving meds. Just no Home health or hospice. Not sure if the DPAP would have been any better since I have already done my rehab and I am still seeing a therapist continuously.

Anyways my concern is that I started my probation 3 months ago. Each month I was test 3 times. Well this month I was only tested 2 times. And It kinda bothers me that I was only selected twice not 3 or 4 times. Has this happened to anyone else. Am I worried for no reason. I seem to self sabotage myself as in when thing are going great I cannot except bc my brain tells me there is something wrong going on. If that makes any sense at all.

But has this happened to anyone. Or is this how the program goes.? Help please. I am confused. :crying2:

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Specializes in critical care, ER,ICU, CVSURG, CCU.

relax...........if you are doing the right things, and regardless of how often they test, you know the result will be negative, the iregular pattern is because it truly is random, they do it that way, so one would not figure out a pattern, and possibly cheat.......;)

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